I know my previous entry made some people angry…but it’s the truth and that’s what I have to say in order to get things going the right way. Hopefully. I don’t know how life in school is for some of u these days but I wish u all the best! For some…next year is your “O” levels and for others, are your “A” levels…and for those who will have their Diploma at the end of these 3 years… All the best too…

I have finished saying my part for those who hate me so much as to not even tell me who you are but I know who nonetheless…and for all those who have been constantly mugging for the promos and getting loads of stress…yupx!

Erm…ok…so…now it’s about me…hmm…yesterday I went out with Charmaine’s parents and went to her concert. So paiseh had to get her parents to fetch me there too! Argh! Reason being, I could not take a bus there as I as too late and also, all the bloody cab lines are all busy! My gosh! Waited for at least ½ an hour for a cab to come by and had to fight/compete with 3 other passer-bys for a cab which never came…so diao! Haha!
Anyways, Charmaines' parents were very nice to me…really! Hmm…her concert was none other than spectacular haha! As usual…but I almost fell asleep when I had to sit through the last orchestra piece *not sung* but the violinist were great! After the concert her parents once again brought me out for dinner…that was about 11pm? Haha…Had to decide on where to eat and they asked me! I said the usual… “Anything” politely Hehe! First Char’s mum asked her husband, then she asked Charmaine, then asked me…why me? I’m just tagging along…haha…

Had intended to give Charmaine’s parents a box of chocolates or something but Shells station is so poorly stocked! Damn! Especially after they offered to pick me up…I actually called Shusan and asked her if she had chocolates to spare! Lol! Oh wells, everything went smoothly…I had a great day yesterday~!

Before I end off…I’m now taking a “GEM” i dint really thought I’d take! Argh! Now I’m taking Genes instead of Psychology! Dang man! Also taking a diploma plus next semester! Going to be super busy…sighs…Happy holidays guys and work starts next week for me…sobx! Haha…

Sunday, October 30, 2005;
I made my mark

Today dint go to work because today I’m going to get back my results and I pray and hope its going to be okay… sighs…I hardly slept the whole of last night as I was so worried I’d flung...have been counting down by the minutes haha! Lolx! Anyways I woke up at 4am and could not sleep ever since. And waited like a pantat till 8.00am as I could not stand the wait any longer so I went to on the com and login into my account. Mum and dad came out and surrounded me. Haha. They anxious too…lolx.. but unfortunately the results dint come out till about 1030 sian lor cos SP sever crash due to the overload of people rushing in. In the end, I had Daniel check my results for me as he offered. He read my results out jokingly so when he said I got a distinction I told him, “don’t come talk crap to me la” haha…little did I expect, it’s the truth! OMG! I cant believe it…but then I screwed my C.A.D and Electronics up too…so sianz…All in all, I scored 3A’s, 1 Distinction, 1 C+ and 1 D+ and class did very well too...in fact now I stand at the bottom of my class…

Went to the yacht club in the late evening with dad as he needed to work on a new breakthrough project which requires him to take measurements using sea water. But on the way there, I and dad almost lost our lives! Thanks to some bloody stupid buses! So irritating! Anyways that’s all for now…I’m very tired…bye.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005;
I made my mark

“I guess I don’t know what I’m feeling right now at the moment. I feel like I’m being cast into some abyss. The feeling of eternal darkness swallows me. With no desire or conscious I fall aimlessly. I’m feeling light headed now…when will I reach the bottom?”

Well, this I quite what I felt when Beng told me that he and Jobe were an item. I can’t believe it for myself even with him telling me over the phone and hearing him spell it out directly into my ear! Gabriel did tell me over the phone some time back…I just can’t take it, and chose to ignore him. Saying it was a bull. Sighs, I just don’t know why this is happening to me even though I and her are separated and we both walk different paths now. Is it still the LOVE deep within my heart that still yearns for her return or is it because I still have this tinge of jealousy left in me? This I’m not sure myself. Besides, she has chosen to walk a path of no return. Imagine, there are signs that spell out, “50miles to doomsday”, “40miles to doomsday”, “30miles…” and counting…She is now at the 50mile mark…if she doesn’t change she’ll be at the 40miles mark in no time. I shall not say what the consequences are as I can’t apprehend the future in my own hands. All I can say is that I really hope she can stop being so stubborn and listen to the advice people around her is giving and change for the better. It will definitely not pay off if u should follow your will and pledge ignorance to others who seek help for you willingly without any regret. I personally feel that it’s a waste to live life so futilely. Grow up Jobe! I wish I could like just say it to her in her face…sadly I have neither courage nor the right to do so anymore.

He and Beng had a relationship which lasted for 2weeks. I really don’t know how to put it to her, “Its time to WAKE UP!” I need someone to slap her. Maybe. Sometimes. Probably. Perhaps. Just seeing her waste her young life away by being so obstinate is simply not worth it. It pains me to see such. Her cousin Bryan has tried but she still won’t listen. Her aunt, Bryan’s mum told me…from the way things are going, her parents will have no choice to send her to the girl’s home. Its really that bad…sighs. Anyhow, now I’m left with the only option…help her out and talk to her over the phone. If better Face-to-face (that will not happen). Perhaps, I shall step in too and give her some of my notes…hopefully I might help. God bless her. That’s all I can say for now. Till next time.

Saturday, October 15, 2005;
I made my mark

I have no mood today to blog anymore...wanted to blog but came here like nothing to say..anyways today i will juz type for the sake of typing...

things that happened today
1)Took leave from work
2)Went to town with my Jaz Jie Jie
3)Had a Japanese Buffet
4)Went for dental appointment
5)See Jie to Jurong East
6)Dinner
7)Mum irritated me
8)Phone confisicated!
9)Wateva...dont give a damn anymore!
10)Love my friends!

Thats abt it for today...sianz...

Friday, October 14, 2005;
I made my mark

Well...hi...i'm back from my lovely cruise to nowhere...haha...its like i suddenly feel so so relaxed for like 2nights and when i arrive back at singapore all the stress is poured on me again...so sian..now as i'm typing this entry i feel so weighed down again...Sighs..Anyways, i shall now elaborate on the trip...

7 Oct 2005
1800hrs : Boarded the SuperStar Virgo
1900hrs : Had Dinner at the Pavillion
2000hrs : Had desert at the Mediterrian
2100hrs : Toured the ship
2200hrs : Went to room to settle down
2300hrs : Played C&C Generals on Bryan's Laptop
0330hrs : Went to bed

8 Oct 2005
0900hrs : Woke up
0930hrs : Ate breakfast at the Bella Vista
1030hrs : Went to look for photos
1100hrs : Played C&C Generals
1330hrs : Had lunch at Mediterranean Buffet and Terrace
1430hrs : Back to the room
1530hrs : Slept on the balcony
1700hrs : Played C&C Generals
1800hrs : Had dinner at the Bella Vista - chicken breast in cashew nut sauce
1900hrs : Went for Francis Yip Concert
2130hrs : Played arcade at the Oasis and used at total of 190tokens!
2430hrs : Walked around the ship, went to the library to check the internet rates
0100hrs : Played C&C Generals in the room
0330hrs : Went to bed

9 Oct 2005
0900hrs : Woke up
0930hrs : Packed up and went for breakfast
1000hrs : Went to the Oasis for the last time before we left
1100hrs : Went to Bryan's mum's friend's room to bid farewell
1130hrs : Got off the ship and got the baggage and stuff
1230hrs : Waited for parents to meet bryan's mum to pass something to them
1300hrs : Went for lunch at the World Trade Centre

That was about all that was done throughout the 3days onborad the ship. though i dint do many things, but i finally go to relax after like countless years.When i mean relax i mean to really feel as though there is nothing in your mind..haha!It was great!Missed people too...haha..and had like so many dreams..LOL..ok..thats about all i'd say for now..so till next time..Cya!

Monday, October 10, 2005;
I made my mark

Good Evening my fellow folks!

*Lame* okok...haha...i was deprived of jokes today so liddat!LOL!Tomorrow me going on a cruise with bryan..hope its fun cos i never been for a cruise before in my life...this is the 1st thime..hope it'll be a pleasant one though..HAHA!
Shall blog abt this cruise nonsense today...cos nth else to blog le...so juz filling the space and stopping all those angry people frm giving me the "wah...sian never blog" attitude.LOL not like there is...haha...ok...my day started off grumpy as i have to wake up early in the morning again!!!tomorrow will be the last of these waking p early at 6am!!Woohoo..well, i woke up did all the stuff and sat in mum's car for 20mins just to fetch my sis to school and back...sighs anyways i got back home i rushed to my bedroom and crashed again! This time to be woken up by my handphone ringing.I was like...so sian diao cos i wanna sleep!!!But who knows!It was bryan..so i was saying..."yes bryan how may i help u" in the lousiest tone u ever heard sound like i just came back from the dead..HAHA!Bryan was like asking me...u sleeping ar?sorry...i was like come on...speak...lol..then he asked me if i wanted to go for a cruise with him..i literally jumped out of bed and asked him when it was?though i know my chances of going is like close to 0%?! haha!And he said its tomorrow!!!Geez!That makes my chances drop to like -99%!!!LOL...so anyways he told me to give it a shot at my mum...so i did as told and the answer was silence...haha...cos i told her not to scold me or yell at me...HAHA!i had to do that or else i'll get a rather nasty earful!Blah blah blah...so things went on...(i lazy to type le) and i was so so damn surprised!My mum allowed me to go!!!!ARG!!!!WOOHOO!!!thats was so unexpected!Dotz...haha..so here i am now typing all these...oh ya before i forget...i finished an anime drawing!!!A gal in bikini!!!HAHA!so HOT!Bleah~...i like it though mum said it doesn't look right..sighs!!!HAHA ok thats all for now...will blog when i get back..or if i lucky does the ship have wireless???HAHA...i'll find out...lol..ok...cya people!

Duane Signing Off...

Friday, October 07, 2005;
I made my mark

Hi People,

Today was rather interesting as gerald and bryan came over though many more were suppose to turn up at my house. Sighs..but it doesn't matter...we had fun!PS2 all the way...WooHoo!LOL! I bought the multiplayer adapter therefore now i'm able to play games to up to 5 players at a time!!!But sadly, i dint know that the adapter only works for original games...sianz lor...Haiz! So could only play one game, Dead Or Alive 2.I and gerald trashed bryan's ass...but on the fair side..we teamed up against him!Bleah~ very unfair!Whoops!HAHA!Everyday wake up at 6 all bcos of sis and mum...sian...anyways its all going to come to an end when dad returns home from Tokoyo..lalala~...My visitors(bryan and greald) stayed till 4.35pm...so now i'm here blogging..muahahaha..
Oh anyways, the 6A gathering, i doubt i'll be the organiser...cos everytime i organise and mum oso kinda fed up of me calling people especially the day before for the final arrangements and confirmations.On my part, i would like to maybe ask gerald to organise...and the organising community will consist of shusan, seeweng, yang cheng, gerald, me? haha i dunno lol!Anyways for those reading tis entry...i think the gathering will be held sometime from the 22nd to the 28th October.Haha..so i'll leave it to the people in this community to discuss abt it.LOL!
Last night i was talking to amber...she sound so totally differnet over the phone!Haha..then suppose to call me today if got problem with her physics but nth...haha meaning she is doing fine i guess...LOL..lets hope!Heez~!Oh wells...lets hope that all my friends doing their examz are doing well...God Bless them all!And to myself too...haha...damn worried abt my results...scarly later all fail...i can go fly kite le...baleh kumpong!HAHA!ROFL!Ok...thats all folks!

*Missing u*...sighs...

Cya!

Thursday, October 06, 2005;
I made my mark