A hard decision to make for someone who wants a friend to remain only as a friend and not a soul mate. And an even harder decision to make for a soul mate that finds that his/her partner seeks the comfort in a friend rather than in him/her. These decisions may spoil relationships and friendships due to the deadly factor present in these situations, namely jealousy.

Friends can be close or distant, of which everyone knows that. But do they know that friends- no matter how distant they are, are still very important? Friends share this special bond with you that parents can never understand. Though they say they have experienced much there is to know about life, they are still unable to unravel this closeness friends have between one another. To tell you the truth, even boyfriends and girlfriends sometimes lose out to just casual friends when it comes to talking about problems he/she faces. People just don’t understand why it is so hard to tell one’s problems to parents and partners. Basically, every blinking person on this planet has come across this phrase in life. And which bird- brain ever said that it’s the character of a person that determines how he/she reacts to such situations? Its utter rubbish! The naked truth is that people tell friends their problems mainly because they do not want to hurt the spouse or even because of fear that something might happen to them if they told their parents. Jealousy thus buds from this very reason. Jealousy is the beginning stage of which hatred and anger develops, which could lead to effects beyond one’s imagination. But as we all know, feeling jealous to some extent is the way life conducts itself. Because if jealousy is entirely not present, how can one know that his or her spouse is actually still loyal and faithful after all this time? This is only one of the many examples I can pick out in life in relationships. One can say that he/she not jealous but deep down inside it’s a raging inferno ready to pour out its fury through an eruption of anguish. We must indefinitely, find out the cause of jealousness for one to be able to tackle it and keep it under control.

Relationships are very complex issues that subject variously to various people. I may not have watched the movie “Hitch” but I sure know it’s something that needs lots of advice and experience to get it through in working -order (insert laughs, followed by long sighs). On the whole, its one thing that should not be fooled around with. Getting into a relationship comes great responsibility and one should be fully committed when in one. You’ll be taking a bull by its horns if you fail to do so, as it hurts both parties real badly. Especially, the one on the other end receiving all the crap he/she has to put up after going through so much to nurture this relationship from scratch. Sometimes, it’s just so difficult to get along well in a relationship. I mean in all relationships, there’s bond to be quarrels due to the lack of common ground on both sides but still, constant disagreements are just going to make things worst won’t it? Just…why can’t people understand?! Why can’t they look at matters in other’s point of view, then life and relationships would be so much less stressful and problematical. It’s evident that many people these days, are turning to being single for life due to all the complications they have viewed in their life after people gets into a relationship. They would thus rather choose friendship over relationship causing a drop in the global population, which in time may lead to the extinction of the human race! The choice is in your hands, choose to seize it or let it go, it’s entirely up to you! Good luck!

Monday, June 27, 2005;
I made my mark

My past few blog entries have been nothing but my sad pathetic life ya?And its still carrying on...arg!Oh wells...today was very tired i class as yesterday was out till 1215am in the morning with my "sis".Went to catch the PCK muscial with her and some of my SA frienz.Had loads of fun!Those present were...Beng(who lost his way), Kenneth(who made me wait at bugis mrt), Mun Hon(who were with his new SP click and had more than 75% of those who he brought older than him...senoirs i guess?)...haha...including Me and Charmaine!The begining of the musical was kinda lame but after the interval things turned for the better!wooohooo!Shant specify every bit of the things that went on but...i muz say...the $85 seats sucks!So pissed off when those people who paid only a mere $14 got to seat so bloody close to the stage and we were like...50meters away!Geez!What to do?!Nvm...

Oh yes...today...as i was saying...went to Foodcourt 6(Er Mei San) to makan...then bumped into another sis...this time its Chelmin...{heys sorry dint exactly fet to tlk to you..haha maybe next time k?}Went to savour the famous fish slice beehoon that aint too tasty but its rather okay thou...then went to acknowledge my mum's friend that happens to be my C.A.D teacher...but she's not too bad despite her temper when myclass makes a big hooha abt the little things...that life i suppose!Heez~

Went to bowl after much contemplating and persuation and got TRASHed!Still managed to get a few strikes and some spares but Fred and Hedi owned us all!Way to go guys!Keep it up!Went back home at 330pm and turned on my favourite "darling"-Ps2 haha!Don't think so much you guys..lolz!Only the Ps2!Then...things happened and kinda ruined my day...but i got to look outside of the box and look at it other ppl's point of view...okok shall end here...till next time ba!

Wednesday, June 22, 2005;
I made my mark

I still miss you...But not like I did before.
The intense aching I felt,
Isn't there anymore.

I still whisper your name...
Not as often as I used to.
Now it may be once,
Before the day is through.

I still hear your voice...
Replaying, in my mind.
But it's fading now,
Soon, silence I will find.

I still long for you...
To feel your touch.
But, it's not like before,
I don't dream it as much.

I still think about you...
And wonder how you are.
But my feelings have changed,
And they don't go as far.

I still feel you sometimes...
Maybe you're thinking of me?
Or maybe it's just a little memory,
Of how it used to be.

I still love you...
But it's just not as strong.
Because I'm letting you go now,
So we can both move on.

I still hear you say...
No one will love me like you do.
That's so hard to believe now,
After the hurt you put me through.

You still have a piece of my heart...
Because I always felt you here.
Now, I'm hoping and praying,
That, that too, will quickly disappear.

This will be my last goodbye...
I've nothing else to say.
Everything I felt for you,
Can now just fade away.

The poem was created with no intention...was juz bored so wrote abt my past...haha!

Thursday, June 16, 2005;
I made my mark

Hi people...now having manga camp in SP in a room with totally no air conditioning!Bloody hot sia!So stuffy too!Juz had lunch and now stoning with my camp mates which are drowning in complete boredom...its very badly organised thou but what the heck!haha!At least we'll get alot of attention!lols!Only 4 people turned up!haha!now they all watching some anime show...ugh!Can't learn to watch those type of things!I guess what will be up next is twister...don't now wat the hell is its purpose..anyways so far i've learnt how to draw the basic face features..Oh well...i better end here or else my teachers come and GAN me...haha!byes!

Saturday, June 11, 2005;
I made my mark

Oh wow...its the 7th of june and its my birthday.Juz great...grandpalanded up in hospital on the 6th and mum flew into a rage on the 7th which HAPPENS to be my birthday...sighs.Anyways its all over i guess...Oh wells...

Today i went to school as per normal...and it was juz the typical school day with nothing out of the ordinary.Had lunch at Foodcourt 4 with shawn and sadly he dint treat me!sobx...haha!Nvm..till next time ba...actually his company is more than enuff lar...haha!Anyways now at school writing this cos got no time at home to do so...sighs..so sad..Aiyah...i gotta go le..till next time ba..haha!And to all those knid and loving souls out there who sent me a sms and called to greet me happy birthday...thank you thank you thank you so so so much!

Wednesday, June 08, 2005;
I made my mark

Sighs...unhappy me again...oh well...wat to do?People like me depend very much from the peple around me to make me decide my mood for that particular day but i guess today wasn't THE day for me...sianz.Sometimes i wonder if those people do actually think about what others are feeling or maybe they juz care solely about themselves without even giving a thought about others?Sighs..it puzzles me.

Anyways today i had a lecture and a tutorial each.I muz admit that mechanics is kinda fun though it is abit the same as A-Maths.Learnt about Vectors and Equilibrium Conditions.Being taught by a nerd looking teacher isn't all too fun but he delivered it well and we all got the facts right on.Sadly this lecturer will only be with us for about 2 more weeks, so i'd better make use of this time to absorb as much as possible.Today, also did loads of excercise sia...went walking to Foodcourt 4 then 5 then to 4 again all bcos of our one and only "jap" boy.hahax.Heys no offence!Lunch juz eat nearby next time k?tsk tsk.

After all that tedious walking we were still not spared...arg!CK you are gonna play for that!Joking joking...hmm..then went to clementi to play pool(not suppose to but went for an hr)
Oops...sorry mum!Played 2 games and got trashed...sianz.Oh well..i was forced to join in..so..doesn't matter..hahahax!

Got home before 3pm, fell asleep and begged dad to drop me for my piano class.Man...he was pissed off at me for making him drive all the way there juz to drop me..heez..special treatment..tsk tsk!Anyhows my music teacher dunno wads her problem today..like got some attitude prob liddat..scold me for nuts lor..sigh.Then worst part is that she chased me out of class when the class is over..kinda sick of that thou but i can t do anything..nvm..i shall endure it or else sure got another big issue.

Before i end off...erm..i wanna wish all my friends who are overseas now a safe trip back and hope you all had fun~!**saw smth kinda sick on the road today..think its some animal which had entrails spilled out due to the vehicles running over it..ugh!Shant gross you all out anymore..hahax shall end here!Bye!

Thursday, June 02, 2005;
I made my mark