I'll Weave Your Broken Dreams Together...Trust Me... - DreamWeaver

Music and Lyrics

2007-03-21T23:39:00.000+08:00

Watched the movie Music and Lyrics with char, think it was a very good movie. Had many funny moments and touching ones. A great show i'd recommand. The songs from the movie were superb and the video above is the intro song whic is super catchy! Love it. haha..

ITP is BORING! Ate up my WHOLE school holiday! Damn! Anyways, wateva la..haha..Nothing can be done. =)

I.M.U

cyaz

100th Post and my wretched mouth

2007-03-13T14:23:00.000+08:00

words pierces deadlier than a sword. this is damn true. sighs once again my words have caused sadness. i shouldn't have said anything in the 1st place then none of this things would have happened and we'll be like happy right now? stupid wretched mouth of mine. wish i can like get rid of it sometimes. born with instinct to say hurtful words and wrong words at the wrong time or even its best not said at all. life would have been so much easier to pass and definately happier. fact is i dint want to see you hurt so much therefore i said it. but on the other hand i...i'm just a total disappointment to myself and to you. i dont know why i said it. i dont know why it just had to happen and i told you about it. i mean apart from the fact that i hide nothing from you, this is just...ugh! wish i can just die like now or something. i'm sorry. i fear so much cos you mean so much. i fear everything that has happened will just vanish bcos of this. i pray for everything to be fine again.

in my last post i said God will help, and i prayed...i'm still praying real hard...i beg for my prayers to be answered...

i believe that with love everything can be overcomed...please believe me.

duane

God does wonders

2007-03-09T15:33:00.000+08:00

Frankly, i got quite lazy to blog thats why there hasn't been a post for AGES. hmm...countless things have happened ever since. I feel that life is filled with surprises and it can be good or bad. The bad ones are horrid...After so many years, i finally believed in praying to God. And it really works. Some things in life should never be taken for granted and if taken would have dire consequences. Not going to say what these things are cos 1stly i dont want it to happen. anyways wtvr, its kinda random. Thoughts are probably wandering as usual. It gets QUITE irritating especially when you think so much of all the "what ifs". Drives you nuts! So in CONCLUSION...PRAY TO GOD! He does wonders... haha...man, sounds like i'm preaching..haha. k. Cyaz

cheer up

2007-02-23T14:21:00.000+08:00

Cheer Up Char

i know its not easy...it never was...

Always here for you.

Valentines Day

2007-02-13T23:05:00.000+08:00

A MASTERPIECE JUST FOR YOU!

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

Haha..the long awaited Masterpiece is FINALLY up on my blog! Dedicated to someone special...Haha.. :P Spent many days and hours on this piece of art, so hope you people like it, especially yes the one i dedicated it to... hehe...Alrighty, to all who are celebrating Valentines Day later today, ALL the BEST! May your true love find something in you only they can find... =)

Love makes you do crazy things but thats the way i like it... haha...

Enjoy!

Square One

2007-02-08T02:10:00.000+08:00

Love has taken its troll on me...kinda hard to type now since my kunckles are quite badly bruised. But well, i'm happy in a way. Don't ask me why cos i'm not going to say. =) I think i'm a retard but well then i'll look for a retard to keep me company. Retards only..

Happiness for you whom it concerns... to see you understand. Thats all i'm saying.

Nitex and Sweet Dreams

OVER are the EXAMS

2007-02-07T00:09:00.000+08:00

YAY! Finally the horrid exams are over! And guess wad...i'm over too! ARGH! Haha...Think my maths was hmm flying kite? Rite...Marketing was not bad, Mechanics was so so and thermo was sad. Haha..conclusion i think i died.

Anyways wateva it is...its over already and there is nothing i can do about it now. Ok so now wad...I'm going to post a super long over due poster of my PDD2 product called "The Blip". And my masterpiece will only be up on the 14th Feb. Haha...so wait and see...hmm...oh ya speaking of which i'd like to throw in a pic i saw on DevianArt. Its so cool. Very very very well done i'd say. Its from KH2(Kingdom Hearts 2)kk so here it goes!

PDD2 PRODUCT POSTER "The Blip"

Favourite KH2 PIC!

Masterpiece will be coming to animate-my-life.blogspot.com soon! haha so check it out! =)

Stupid Mouth Of Mine

2007-01-31T00:13:00.000+08:00

There are times when i feel that i'm the dumbest and stupidest person in the world. Guess wad, right now, this is one of those times. I just feel like...i dont know. I just can't describe that feeling. I feel like i have sort of ruined someone's life. It feels terrible and its not the 1st time already.

Its like...

Why do i have to say things at the wrong time?

Why do things have to suddenly crap up when all is fine?

The questions keep flashing in my head. Its damn hell irritating. I feel like an ass. A complete one. Low self-esteem? Probably...Anways whatever. Nows not the time to think about all this. Got more important things at hand. Cheer up.

Bye

its been awhile....

2007-01-25T23:00:00.000+08:00

Right...I understand that my blog is SO dead for the 1st time. Haha...Sorry about that.

Its been ages since i last blogged due to MANY MANY MANY things happening. Some good some bad...and some...commentless...rite...

Anyways, life has been quite turbulant lately. Problems that arise for no damn reason...haha, weird. Looks like i'll have to continue my wait? haha...A long long way but i know it'll be worth it! :) Some funny feeling tells me so...hmm...oh wells...

Exams are in 4days time and i feel that i'm kinda screwed? To some extent...we'll see how things go..A's? I hope they come? hahaha....k...i'm crapping.

I . M . U

One more thing...Pics will be up again once i have time k? Have yet to post my PDD2 poster up here!!! =)

Remember...ANYTHING is POSSIBLE if you BELIEVE!

cya!

Merry Christmas

2006-12-23T00:56:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas!!!

Wishing all those out there a very very special and exciting year ahead as this Christmas marks the ending of this year 2006!

May ALL your wishes come ture, and mine too... :P

God Bless!

I...

2006-12-23T00:51:00.000+08:00

I miss...

I love...

I hope...

I pray...

I wish...

Product Design Pic

2006-12-14T01:35:00.000+08:00

This is crappy! Argh! I blogged but i navigated from the page and the entry was lost!!!! Dots..nvm...i heck la..lol i want to sleep already lazy to blog again.

Anyways, i did a pic of which the skills i used were learnt from the internet. The title of the pic is very random so dont bother asking why. So erm...ya, comment abt it ok? The usual..haha..kk..

Enjoy and SLEEP EARLY!

ciao`

Brightside of Life

2006-12-09T11:42:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was GREAT! Really enjoyed ourselves! :) All the crapping...nonsense and all. Haha.. Though...i FAILED my Basic Theory Dring Test..Agh...heck it! Haha..Dint really bother me actually. LoL. Watever la..In any case i had fun...Spent a BOMB though.. hehe.. Went to Margaritas for dinner with char..Shared a Fagitas and of cos a margaritas.. A very nice dinner indeed. Was bloated...haha..kk shan't blog more la..lazy.

Haha..School's ending in abt 5 more days time? Yay! So cool...but got tonnes of work during the hols this time..haix..nvm..Tomorrow maybe chionging Marketing Porject. Going round Singapore in search of SK jewellery and promotions! Going to be fun!

Mum MISSES me? OMG...haha. :pP 1st time..hahahahaha..wtvr la. LOL!

kkx..thats about it!

Ciaoz~

Falling Apart

2006-12-04T22:31:00.000+08:00

Everyting seems to be falling apart so fast.. I dont know if i can take it when it goes all at once. I hope that will never happen. Sighs. These few days have been quite hard...I dont know why i'm saying all these but, true its not easy to get by. Things keep on stacking on top one another. I hope that when in the darkest hours, it means the light will come soon. The grammer is wrong but i dont care, hope u guys understand what i meant.

Congrats Char for passing ur Advanced Theory...I feel happy for you. Having my basic on friday, hope it'll be okay, else another load on my shoulder.

Watched "Happy Feet" today, hoping of lifen things up but the night is still young. Got a long way more till i sleep. Sounds as though i'm on some never ending journey...Believe it or not, i've been praying faithfully daily for everything. I just hope that my prayers and hopes and wishes will come true. I just so hope it does. Sighs...

Lonliness and jealousy kills and i know how it feels...its really horrible. Experienced it so many times and yet i'm still not used to it.

Fear...I cant hide from it...

Sometimes... i just wish i was earlier in everything. It'll make so much of a difference.. k..

bye.

Another Day...

2006-11-28T21:08:00.000+08:00

Rite....today was erm..okay i'd say. Did ok for thermofluids...got 92%. Sighs the 100% gone..lol but nvm, i'll do better haha! kk. PDD presentation went smoothly, renders were not bad. Surprised the teachers with it...haha! Now gotta study for maths test that is like tomorrow?! Hope by tonight can be quite good at it..hehe..

Tomorrow's gonna be a mega hectic day once again. Got ProE "make-up" lesson from 10am - 12pm, then got meeting with GEMS Client from 1-3pm. After which, have test at 5.15pm...

Today all went well except that i had to wait for more than 45mins for bus 200 at North Bouna Vista, of which i got fed up waiting and took a cab home.. Dots... Waste my time. Project group for PDD is err....rather screwed? Sianz...always kena this type of people in my group. Fated la...

K enough about horrid school..

Think i have been rather mean or rather cold to a certain person. i dont know...that how i feel...haix... LoL kk..I put yet another pic i rendered for my Smart Walking Frame Concept.

I present...

THE TRIPOD...

cya ~

Revived!

2006-11-27T21:04:00.000+08:00

Its been AGES. Literally ages since i last blogged. Haha. If this continues the blog will be dead permanently! So.. now at least it'll be revived for a while after this post! Haha.

Basically, life has been rather erm.. unusual? stressful? and definately UNCERTAIN! :P Gah...uncertainty..hmm..nvm hope it pays off :pP KK enough crap liao..

This is the PDD design i did for my interface for my smart walking frame. Sounds weird but i want you guys and gals to have a glimpse of it. Comments are greatly appreciated as usual.

I present to you...

THE INTERFACE

Ruthy is coming back from Aust! Yay! Anyways, hope to watch "Happy Feet" with her..haha..waiting for the good news!

I got 100% for ProE, 76% for Mechanics, only 67% for CAMAC (Milling), 95% for Maths 3, 77% for BPNV. Thermofluids marks will be returned tomorrow so hmm..all the best to myself haha! Have gotta study better and get 4pts this sem...lol.

Okays..

Tag people!

Cya

Heavy Hearted

2006-11-12T02:07:00.000+08:00

My heart is HEAVY

But i CAN'T do anything about it

Please be HAPPY

As ONLY that can make me feel BETTER

You have NO idea how this feels...

dots

2006-11-09T18:35:00.000+08:00

Sian...back to Square one. Furthermore sick.

Wtvr la.

Bored.

Missing U...

2006-11-02T18:54:00.000+08:00

Today is a good day to blog...Cos i have time and yes i cant talk on the phone today. Sighs. Anyways, got rather ok results from my maths common test yesterday. Expected to get full marks but missed it by 1 point...gah!! Like wth la...

Hmm...decided to start my silkroad online again with sis thou that will mean i'll lose all my items and everything..NO!!! Cos going to try another sever which wont lag that much. Next week is E-learning week! haha means holiday to some extent? haha!

I wish...

I pray...

I miss...

I hope...

Projects are filling my days up accompanied with tests starting from today...sighs. I wonder why, why is life always putting me in a spot?! The higher you go the more fear you get...

Gone for a while seems like eternity...

Saturday is coming! Yay!

Bye~

Anime!

2006-10-28T03:02:00.000+08:00

This pic is dedicated to Char...

I'm actually starting to like doing bright pics haha!

Enjoy!

PS: Comments are greatly appreciated :)

Comments Wanted!

2006-10-25T00:59:00.000+08:00

Hey Guys...This is the most recent Pic i did for my project. Spent donkey years waiting for inspiration to strike me till today! Damn Happy...LoL. I would like comments PLEASE. Thanks! Its for a presentation due on Thursday so yea.. :) Comments wanted! Haha!

Nitex!

close yet far

2006-10-21T23:17:00.000+08:00

...so CLOSE and yet so FAR...

crapping

2006-10-20T08:53:00.000+08:00

As usual..i have not been blogging for a while..stuck with the projects and all and yes of cos i'm LAZY too... :P Okays...anyways my morning was screwed, all thanks to my world famous nonsense mum who always likes to talk things that has no link to whatever she scolds me for. Dots...

Ok this entry will not be dedicated to her so thats all abt her for now. Hmm...okays, char u better study well for the advanced driving theory today! Haha..and you have gotta make sure i pass the basic one in 1 shot! LOL!

-Crapping...Crapping...Crapping-

Rite...so now i got the slideshow of pictures up...i need photos! More photos! Haha! The no. of them i put in is quite pathetic..but not to worry there will be more :D
It'll sound wrong if i said," take more photos with me!"

So since you people out there are looking at this screen, u know what to do la.. :) I hope...haha!

Okays, i like my XD project group lots...great guys! And gals too...lol. Its just so different the feeling eventhough the group is just formed and we hardly know each other but i feel that we're rather close. like we are brought together by fate or smth..haha. kk.

thats all for now.. and miss char's "kk." hmm..she's gonna kill me for that..

Wtvr la..

ciao~

Video!

2006-10-16T23:06:00.000+08:00

Hey guys, i just added a mini slideshow to my blog. Tell me if its ok anot :) Haha! Had to fiddle alot with the stupid html codes to get it in place but what the heck, its here!

Cheers!

China Pics

2006-10-11T00:04:00.000+08:00

Ok...1stly, i'll like to commeorate miss shusan for being always there when i needed to hear her opinions about certain issues...Anyways thanks a bunch!

Hmm...I realised that i did not post any photos of my trip in china. So i shall post it here now :)

PICTURES FROM CHINA:

The locals LOVE us...wahaha!

Where can u get this? Definately not at east coast park!

Ramifications of drinking too much hard liquor and acting HERO!

This is zhou jin...the little princess of my Shifu. She is so mega cute lar! haha!

Our masterpieces...the TOILETS!

My Teacher...

2006-10-08T11:34:00.000+08:00

This is my new piano teacher and her most horrible student! :P

Had a great time yesterday...though the haze was terrible. Reached a high of 150psi! Anyways, that din't stop our moronic antics hahaha! Horrible girl always bully me.. :P And so much homework from this MUSIC TEACHER!

Take Care

Finally An Art Piece!

2006-10-07T02:15:00.000+08:00

Ferrari

2006-10-05T21:30:00.000+08:00

Finally...i got my dream car... wahaha! :P

45mins Wait

2006-10-04T15:39:00.000+08:00

I'm killing time now in school...have nothing to do for 45mins so here i am updating my "dead" blog. Anyways, i'm going for some interview later for a mentoring cca. To mentor small kids in primary school. Like "WOW!" they need to be mentored and would they listen? Haha..oh wells no matter how we explain, we have to convince their friends. In primary school, if i'm not wrong, peer pressure plays a major role in decision making at that age.

And i'm wondering...What the hell am i talking about this for?!

Bored...LOL. I guess the reason why i wanted to join this cca was b'cos of friends. Have many friends in there. And i'm like going to be CHELMIN's junior!!! ARGH! This is dumb...confirm kena by her...SIGHS! Going to kena boxed by her for saying this..so hmm..that'll make me get boxed by her 3times in 2days?

K..enough small talk.

Ciao~

DreamWeaver

2006-10-04T00:05:00.000+08:00

My new Personalised Signature for my artworks

Incomplete

2006-10-01T00:13:00.000+08:00

I decided i should blog after a long time. Oh wells. Many things have happened in these past few weeks. School just started for like 1 week already and i'm sort of enjoying my modules at the moment. Hope to score 4pts this sem for my GPA. Anyways, Been back from the China trip. The trip taught me alot of things i would not experience in Singapore. Especially appreciating the TOILETS! Made lots of friends and learned new skills.

Enough of the trip. Dont exactly feel like blogging now. Feel very sian. I dunno why but yeah i feel like incomplete today. Should not let my mind run wild. Think i'm thinking too much. All the best for those doing their exams in the coming weeks. Good luck Char for the piano paper, Jean for the EOY exam all the best. May you succeed in getting into the desired course u want and again, don't be too stressed out okays? Everythings going to be just fine when the exams are over. Dont think too much :)

Enjoy the new blogskin.

Ciaoz

China

2006-09-02T22:49:00.000+08:00

hey guys, i'll be away in china from tomorrow onwards till 21st sept.

All i wanna say is take care back in singapore!

Tmr's flight is at 8.35am so gotta be in the airport at 6am. Just letting those who wanna call me b4 i leave :) Okays...god bless!

Bye.

ME

2006-09-01T01:04:00.000+08:00

I THINK TOO MUCH

I WORRY TOO MUCH

I'M JUST ME

WILL U HATE ME?

China Upcoming

2006-08-30T11:07:00.000+08:00

Ugh...have been down with a bad fever, headaches and aches for the past 3 days. Stupid jab and its side effects...haix. Took 2 jabs and malaria pill on a single day. kaoz... Oh wells..its over.

Today, finally feeling better. Had been having rough nights the past few days. Horrid. Hope everyone is feeling fine. Results will be out soon!!! Argh! And i'll be away when it is released...heh! Leaving for china on Monday 2am! So gotta be in the airport at abt 11pm on Sunday. Meeting will be at 1130pm. Yups.

kk...i have really nth to say le...this blog is dying..wahaha! TAG! LoLx.

take care.

Bye

6A poster as promised..

2006-08-25T15:36:00.000+08:00

Okays, miss shusan...this is the poster for 6A as promised. Told ya i'd do it before i go to China. Help me tell the others abt it. you can download it from me. Its in a wallpaper size of 1024 x 768.

Enjoy!

DreamWeaver

What is Fear?

2006-08-22T02:20:00.000+08:00

What is fear? Is it a feeling of agitation and anxiety caused by the presence or imminence of danger, a state or condition marked by this feeling: living in fear, a feeling of disquiet or apprehension: a fear of looking foolish, an extreme reverence or awe, as toward a supreme power, or even a reason for dread or apprehension: Being alone is my greatest fear?

The answer is, all of them. Fear can manifest into many forms and affect us drastically, in the way we perceive things. For example, since I fear the dark I will not step into a dark room. Let’s say for instance, someone where to throw you into a dark room, what would you do? You can’t say no, because you have no choice. You can’t get out because the room is locked. So what are you going to do?

Face your fear.

Taking the dark room as a very good example, as we all was once afraid of the dark at some point in time. You would actually notice that we eventually overcome our fear of that dark. I being an example, at an early age, my parents would tuck me into bed every night. And I would ask them in a very soft voice just before they leave my room, “Daddy, can you leave the staircase light on, and leave my door slightly open?” My dad would smile and say, “Sure.” But, time after time, soon after fall asleep, he would turn it off. Initially, I felt so mad at him for turning the lights off because in the middle of the night I would wake up and find total darkness around me. I was afraid, but after a while I got used to it and now I’m no longer afraid of the dark. Now, I even could not get to sleep if there is some light!

Fear of mockery. This is one fear we should not take lightly. This form alone has taken many lives. On the news, you see countless people taking their own lives by doing stupid things. Classic example is when a friend challenges another to swim or do something that is dangerous. That’s when face comes before safety and therefore we end up with another dead person.
The one fear that I can’t get over, is the fear of letting history repeat itself. Especially, when it comes to relationships dealing with affairs of the heart. (No finger pointing) but truth is its something I fear terribly. I want my next relationship to be my last and best.

Okay, enough about fear and all…haha I have decided that my next picture that’s going to be posted is going to be titled fear. I have done out a rough layout of what it’ll look like and GOD its bloody scary! I can’t bring myself to do it at night. Just looking at it sends shiver down your spine. Beware!

Nothing For Now...

2006-08-20T14:29:00.000+08:00

Wow..its Sunday already! Its been only 4days after my exams and i feel like its been a long time already..haha!

For those who don't know, I'll be in CHINA from 4th September all the way to 21st September. Will be there to help build facilities for the poor.. =)

Ok, back to the topic...i don't think i'll be doing more pictures until i have the feeling...Now i have none! Haha! Oh wells, for the next picture i would like it to be a brighter and happier one apart from those that i have done recently. Haha, i think its getting to me already..ugh.. :P

I want to play BADMINTON! Its been a while since i played it..hor hor...those reading this ar...is responsible to accomodate me..haha so book a day to play with me!!! HAHA! Okay..don't think i have anything else to say for now...Study hard for those either taking their "O" Levels and those going for their steaming for their different combinations.. Take care!

Buaix

Request From Raven

2006-08-19T09:36:00.000+08:00

Argh! Blogger is crapping up again! I cant upload my full image! Sorry jobe! The image stands at 40.9Mb now, but even after i resize it, the stupid blogger still can't take it..dunno wahts wrong la...the last pic on loneliness was abt 20Mb..now this one resize to 2oMb oso can't! Damn sian la...Spent 2 days trying to upload..Diao! Argh!

I think my photoshop skills are improving slightly...hope u guys like this one...abit the bloody and gothic..Specially requested by Raven aka Jobe.

Enjoy!

PS: The pic u see now is a screen shot. Rave, if u want the actual high res image ask me..i try to send to u! :)

Cheers~

Artworks Ahoy!

2006-08-16T15:34:00.000+08:00

Dear readers...

You'll be seeing more pictures these days as i choose to relay my thought into my artworks. I feel its a better way for me to do so.. Anyways, enjoy the artpieces... =)

Comments are welcomed...Also please tag before you leave

Cheers!

Yesterday, the materials exam was rather ok...a few questions i crapped but over all ok lor...Marketing paper was so so la...Nothing really great..

Just hope that this sem GPA wont be too bad...

Right now like kinda no mood like that, have stupid accounts paper to do tomorrow. Argh...i'm so gonna die la...i just got this damn feeling i'll have to re-take the module next sem...haix..hope not.. mum was like if u gotta re-take then re-take lor...i tot she was gonna scold me or smth. oh wells...just hope i dont have to ba...

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I know the reason now...

Its okay, now i understand....

I wasn't being ignored....

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changes...

2006-08-13T17:58:00.001+08:00

Hmm...Have been sudying for that past 8hrs..tonight another big dinner...haix..haha! Have been having 3 big dinners consecutively..kinda sian of those dinners le..but since my uncle come nevermind la..haha!

I sense a change...in people...i'm not sure if its me...or it actually is? Puzzled... Is it the age? As people grow up they change? Probably ba...but..its too sudden...what will happen once i go into army? people say people change alot after they come out..like its some portal into another world.

People will change...

LoL..byran's the ice cream champion for 2 years in a row. Congrats! Woner hows the skid by jean, nigel and jobe. hmm..DAMN sianz la..4 days till all my misery is over...can't wait. Then can go out le.. =)

k...wtvr...nothing to say le...haha.

Ciao~

StresseD

2006-08-11T17:21:00.000+08:00

My days are growing darker and darker...Argh..the exams are friggin near! Just finished my WSE test and i think i screwed up my press release BIG time! Sales letter was ok...somehow i got a knack for it..oh wells...die la...Sianz!
This sem my predicted GPA would stand at 3.2 thats like mega sucky! Crap...How many A's? None? Sighs..really got to do something about my results...I'm doing worst and worst...becoming more and more lazy! And yet i know...thats so dumb..i know yet i dont do anything...Congrats to me!
Ok..lets see...i have 4 days left to cover my 4 subjects throughly..tonight going for dinner with uncle so half the night is spent eating...fine..tmr going out to study with raz..hopefully after tmr i'll be ok in my maths and accounts. I pray...Sheez.
Haix..nothing to say now...dunno whats there to blog...more like dont feel like saying anything at the moment.
Crappy Days up ahead.
Watch out.

Late Nights

2006-08-06T17:15:00.000+08:00

Yawnz...wah damn tired...everyday sleep at 3.00am do nothing but edit my projects on photoshop..lol. But i love photoshop! Its damn cool la! :P Anyways i know i have not been blogging again for like a long time...and blah blah blah, well the usual...i'm LAZY and EXAMS are round the corner...haix...this Semester the GPA surely drop like nuts. I'm dying in accounts! I HATE accounts! Oh wells...

FEATURES POSTER

ADVERTISEMENT POSTER

These are the posters i did up. I think its very average...stupid shawn, do the poster till so zhai! Argh! What to do...part time graphics designer...hmm :( Will try to compete with him again next sem in PDD2...I'll be back!

Will be going over for BBQ on National Day's eve...hmm...can't wait..haha..think can stay late? LoL! See how... Jean, cheer up :) Get over it k? Smilez~

Err...EXAMS on the 15th Aug and 17th Aug...so soon...hope can still do well...okays hen i shall go mug again..haix...Cya!

REGRET

2006-07-27T22:56:00.000+08:00

Why is all this happening?

Why did i ask such a dumb question?!

I know i'm suppose to wait...

Why did i ask?!

It was just to clarify something...

Nice excuse.

Geex...Just shoot me...

Right in the head!

Now is not the time...

And still i ask.

I screwed myself up...

Now i'll face the consequences...

LIFE...

A sad meaningless thing.

LOVE...

A feeling plagued with regret.

HOPE...

A feeling lost.

Now comes loneliness, sorrow, agony...
And a lifetime filled with SIN and REMORSE.

A Post In A Very LONG Time..

2006-07-23T22:36:00.000+08:00

ok...I know i have not blogged in a very long time. Was extremely tied up i school work - projects and all that. Shall blog abit about my birthday and my trip to europe. On top of that i shall blog about how much i detest people accusing me and wrong-ing me.

1st, About my birthday, it was great having u guys at my dinner. Really appreciated it. Thanks again for all the wonderful presents. I know the buffet selection was not that great and the food was so so, but well the company pays it off.

2nd, About my europe trip. I have to say europe is a nice place. But the tour was horrbile, and once again i can conclude that i don't like tours. Went to London, Paris, Itay, Veniece, Rome, Geneva, Nice. Paris is darn bloody crowded. And throughout the whole trip, i have been hearing the siren of ambulance every single day at least 3times! London was HOT. Literally. Itay was nice and "Nice" was nice too. Veniece was cool and amusing. Took pictures of sis and her pigeons(highlight of her trip). Quite nice but anyways. Rome was hot, stuffy and interesting. I liked the colloseum. Geneva was great but mum fell sick. So she missed out on some stuff. LOVED St. Paul De Vence! Very artsy! Designer's paradise.

Ok that was a mega brief outline of my trip. And now about how much i detest people who accuse me and all that.

Do you know how it feels when someone accuses you of being something you arn't? Eg. Les, Gay. I think you know what i mean but thats not the point. I don't hate or detest this, but what i HATE most is when a person go and tell other people. And UNFORTUNATELY, the other person believes. Its like Nvm..

I shan't blog no more for today.

Else, profanities may spill out.

U know who you are. Stop all the f-ing rumors.

ciao.

Presents!

2006-06-04T21:25:00.000+08:00

The suspense has finally ended! Here are the great gifts from my friends!

By: Eden

By: Char & Em

By: Dominic

By: My one & only 6A!

Thanks guys for all the presents...eventually its the thought that counts :)
I wish you guys all the best in everything you all do! Take care!

Foreva There...

2006-05-28T21:38:00.000+08:00

From Clockwise: San, Sw, Yc, me!

LOL! This is the 1st time i uploaded a pic to my blog...haha...Just to try out! :) Anyways, coolest bunch around! Haha! These are the people who are always there for me...This is like some Thank you session..lol!

Now, for the actual blogging...I really feel super "sian" of school! Got so much things to hand up this coming week! Argh!!! Thinking of skipping the afternoon lesson tomorrow to go back to SAS to do my artefact...stupid sp no wood lathe... :( Whereas i hate engineering design! I hate mondays...grr...got stupid engineering design and accounts! Sucks! Woohoo, last week of school! Can't wait for Thursday, Friday, Saturday! Cheryl, heys you'll do fine.don't worry.study hard!

-END-

Disappointed...wateva!

2006-05-26T23:09:00.000+08:00

Had a long day today...sighs...think i won't do too well for my Engineering Maths Test...sighs...screwed up my last question! Argh! Anyways, Raj...thanks ar..tear up my paper...LOL...next time don't discuss with you after my test...but thanks...really. Have to look on...And not dwell in the past...wats done is done... :)

Ok, lets see....i did an embarassing thing today! :P i actually fell asleep on a gal's shoulder on my way back from town! OMG! haha! Was like so mega paiseh...but the gal...not chio la.. :P okok...crapping...

Now, its serious...I just hate it when i specially invite people and then they don't turn up bcos another person is not coming..i'm not pointing fingers at anyone but yea...i don't like it. Especially, when i try like erm...for 2 years?! Can't even make it just 1 night? Forget it...

"Zhong Se Qin You"

All the sorry no use...year after year its the same...excuses...and this year its the worst to be frank...i'll call someone else...

Doortje:
Heys, I'll be flying into London on the 9th evening...Will be staying in London till 13th June...U really sure u want to meet me? But yes, i do look forward to this meeting :) Hope to see ya!

-End-

Monday Blues

2006-05-22T15:43:00.000+08:00

1st things 1st, My birthday the dinner venue could be changed. So about the hotel Royal one leave it aside. I'll update you guys where is the new venue asap :)

ok, now to update my blog...Flashes of the thoughts in my head seem to be appearing more and more often...not something i like though so yea...but i always will assure myself that i'll leave it to fate to decide this kind of problem..sighs..the future is so unpredictable..I believe that things like relationship is something we can't mould...it really all depends on the other party..if she accepts then good for you..else, you leave it to fate to let things take its course..as pris always preach, God has a plan for us all. Though i'm not a christian, but i really believe in this. Haha..weird but yea.. :) The thoughts always appear in the nights and times you feel so lonely...the quietness makes your thoughts wonder even more.. Oh wells... Many of my friends right now are in a relationship, just wish them the best :) Seems like 18 is the time for relationships to start or something..haha..no offense but as yc says ,"you're only 18!". Love is very blind, trust me, i have experienced it...haha! But well to all those love birds out there, god bless you all :)

On Sunday, which is yesterday, went out with Bryan to attend Yc's Amazing Food Race! haha, wacky game but its nice...get to experience and taste differnt food from "all over" singapore..lol. See la jobe, ask you to come dun wan...can't enjoy :P Hmm..i personally feel that i have been neglecting some friends during this time...have been rather busy or come back very late.. :)

Oh ya one more thing...To all those taking their "O" levels Chinese in a couple more days? (haha..i not too sure when LOL!) All the best!!! Good Luck! Esp to my St. Marg friends and Amber.. kk...have to go for class soon, today's gonna end late..argh..friggin 8.30pm! LOL!

~I hate monday classes~
~Reason: sleep late on sundays and sleep during Engineering Design..Get scolded by teacher who slam the book on my table to wake me up. Get Monday Blues...

Argh..this is getting no where lol...bye!

Enlightenment

2006-05-19T12:51:00.000+08:00

Man, i had a hard week...Not an easy one...1stly, stress from 3 ongoing projects due to be done in 2 weeks. Next i had...some problems...affairs of the heart...din't really make things beter... sighs. But, now i know i have taken a step ahead. Seriously, i feel that i have some how attained some enlightenment.. Things happen so suddenly. there i was all down in the dumps 2 days ago and i was initially expecting the week to turn out dreadful but just yesterday everything went smoothly and i finally broke out of the horrid spiral of love and hate. I feel really relived... :)

Thanks for those who stood by me...i know i have given you guys the moody tone and all when u called me but yea thanks alot. This goes out specially to YC and Bryan... :) Thanks! Now, things are starting to turn on the brightside... :) ok gotta go now got GEMS and its at 1! ARGH gonna be late! Bye!

Sianx!

2006-05-14T23:06:00.000+08:00

How GREAT! Just GREAT! Another one of those days where i feel so sian! Argh! I hate this feeling!!! Really like wanna go out or something! And its 11.05pm! I'm practically ROTTING! The feeling of slowly decaying...damn the feelings la!

I wanna talk to someone...So that i can rid this "sian-ness" inside me! Going BONKERS!

Life kinda sucks when this happens...excuse me...

Birthday Stuff

2006-05-08T23:31:00.000+08:00

Well, my birthday is around the corner...hmm...this time budget is S$200. so can call about 12 people? Kinda sad..but yea...sighs! Anyways, its just a dinner on either 2nd, 3rd, 4th of june. So make yourselves free ar! Lol! Its on either a friday, saturday, sunday, in case u people are lazy to go check. haha! I'm free on all of those days, so can meet up with you people. Just wanna enjoy and heck about work for those few days so make it memoriable! Haha!

Any Wish List For me? Hmm...nope! I like SURPRISES! But not the spiked type! Haha! You people know me so..hmm..shall leave it to you peeps! Erm...Think thats about all for now. I'll inform you guys the details at a later timing!

=)

Joy & Troubles

2006-05-07T21:30:00.000+08:00

Its been a rather long time since i went online as my laptop is down...stupid thing crash on me when i had to do a presentation..sianz..anyways, going to get it up and running soon! ok..about my life..its time to update!

Yesterday, went out with Char...started off fine, then we went to try out the new cinema- The Cathy. It can be matched to the GV seats. Quite comfortable i'd say. Not bad at all. Sound system is great! hmm..oh ya, they have a new type of service. they bring the food you ordered to your cinema seat! Its that good. Initially, Char was rather worried that they would not bring our food we ordered. Funny gal...relac k? haha! Erm..she even asked me to go check! Haha! But i'm not complaining :P Bleah~

Watched the show "When A Stranger Calls". Its a really good show to keep you on your toes! One heck of a thriller...scared the ginkies outta me a few times! hmm..a good show nonetheless.. :)

Oh ya..went back home at about 1am...got scolded by mum. (the usual) wahaha! Well, things happen after the movie...but there was good stuff as well as not too good ones...lol! The past, should be left behind...Onwards!

Now one of the artists i like is Shakira! Think she's very good! A brilliant singer! "hips don't lie"
Excellent song! Anyways that's about it ba. And my screwed up presentation? That one, can do better with my group! Sharon, heys if u see this, Remember our group can do well ba...that day wasn't exactly in good mood after the wretched presentation. you guys got stage fright. Me too...haha!Sad la..next time we have to have more trials before the actual thing! Can do well one! That'll be our "A" Module. I assure!

Okies, hmm...my birthday is coming up. think it'll be on either 2,3,4 june? Have to confirm...but it'll be very rush for me haha! Would have just came back from HongKong! Till next time...I'll be Back! haha! Bye peeps!

Updates About My Life

2006-04-28T22:40:00.000+08:00

I kinda have enough of all these squabbles already. Anyways my blog entries have been rather foul lately, time to make amends i guess? haha! :) Hmm...lets see, what do i have to say? Well, I have tonnes of projects waiting to be dued in the next 2 weeks. Have been rather tired after school during this week, dont know for what reason but yea... Made new friends in my new class. Cool peeps. I finally made the right choice in my life, choosing CIE over the main stream. i personally feel so =) Something i can excel in other than mugging and burying myself into countless books and notes.

On the other hand, i do miss the DME/23 people. Nowadays, only can get to see them by chance. Sighs. Oh wells, what to do? In the working world its going to be you and yourself facing reality and the harsh life of the real world. Better start training up!Oh ya, Sis's birthday party is this Sunday! Hmm...think i'm going to be the MC again. haha! Think i'll get paid? Not a chance! LOL.

My B'day is around the corner too...have to think of what to do...right now, nothing really bright at the moment. Think of just calling a few very close friends. That's about it. But well, others are also warmly invited to come celebrate haha! Feels weird stating this on my blog... :P argh, heck! LOL.

Have been working over-time on my sch stuff...want to get DIST. Should be easier? Haha... Now about my GEMs, Its fun but at the same time taxing? If you people out there are wondering what is GEM, its "General Elective Module". I took Design Appreciation. So ya, by the way i was saying, its taxing. Reason being, some of the projects given are long term ones. And the current one is some photography one. hmm..have to fork out time to go take pics with my group mates. 3 of us. Of which 1 is a china gal which can't understnad english at all?! Oh my...And she is from ICT..How is she going to do well or least understand the lecturers and do the tutorials? That baffles me and my classmate. LOLx!

In class now, i'm just sticking to i think only 5 people? Hmm..the others are sorta hard to communicate with. Different frequency is the problem. haha. Maybe time will help. Had a wretched game of bowling today. Really sucky! Reason is i had a bowling ball of the wrong size. I normally use size 8 and today the alley was jam pack and all the size 8's were taken. Had to switch between size 10, 11, 12...it was horrible!The score i shant mention. :P one of the worst games ever. ugh. Wasted my $6 on 3 games of which i and fred played only 2. What to do? Had to rush for GEMs.

Met Razali at about 5pm. Sit and talk with him and his darling till 5.20pm. Then had to make a escape to mum's car. Got a earful and went home. Slept, ate dinner, type this entry and, going to be on the phone.

This is my SUMMARY of the day. Bye. =)

The Bastard (Part 2)

2006-04-24T23:11:00.000+08:00

Well...This is what the bastard FOO CHENG KAI said on his blog. Take your time to read it.

Attention to all!

A warning post found on Duane's blog. He has defamed my good reputation. Heed my warning now! Beware! For those who do unto others will do harm unto themselves. Do not blame others for your own mistakes and thus fabricate a whole new lie from nothing.

In his blog, he stated "A mother fucking son of a gun who cannot seem to stick to his own circle of friends." This is my response, my friends are MY FRIENDS. Some of them may be your friends and thus do not assume that they are only yours! People can meet new friends everyday. Therefore, do not treat your friends as only YOUR friends.

He has also stated "Go find yourself some female friends and stick to them. Leave my friends alone." He has again stated the obvious. He thinks that his friends can ONLY be his friends. This is utterly rubbish. Each man can make as many friends as he wants and not restrict his friends to not make friends with others.

He has stated " I know you send the email to our lecturer to blackmail me. " Hear my warning, YOU SHALL BEAR THE WRATH OF YOUR OWN DOING. Do not blame others for your own mistake. As a good student, I am merely upholding justice in the school. I have done my part to report. Wheather the Lecturer wants to punish you is up to his own discreet. Therefore, if you are so afraid of what others may do to you, you should not have done that in the first place. Bear the consequences of your mistakes.

Please be responseible and bear all the consequences of what you have done. This is the advise I give to you.

Remember this : I must and will never be cowed by the bluster of reactionaries.If you fight, I will wipe you out completely.

Foo Cheng Kai if this is what you think is right of you to do so, you can go hide in your cowardly little dog hole and piss off. For goodness sakes... "defamed your good reputation"? My foot. you have a notorious reputation and that i'm very sure. A FUCKING bad one. SO please dont talk crap to make it sound like you are so good. "Fabricate a new lie?" Fuck off bitch. There was no lie in my entry.

And i strongly urge you to go REFLECT on what u have said on your blog. Why not i ask all the people reading this entry something...

Do you people like it when someone like FOO CHENG KAI, bothers and ask for details about a friend of yours when he has nothing or no relation with the person? I mean making friends is ok, but you are going too far. Adding girls like some desperate bitch on friendster. And thats not all, do any of you people like it when some guy go around knowing and making friends with all your gal friends? Thats not the worst...The worst is when you use their names and bring them up so ever so often. Come on! we each have our own circle of friends. You find yours and keep out of mine!

You are intruding into people's privacy! Get a life..

About the blackmail part, it is none of your business. its has nothing to do with you. its between me and daniel. So just Fuck off!

What you have typed is down right immatured...you have no sense of friendship. no whatsoever. You will never understand the hurt i have felt when a person i regarded as a "friend" stabbed me in the back. I have no such friend like yourself.

I have said my piece. So if you still think you are " so holy", "so damn fucking good" then i really feel sorry for you are a vermin to be pitied.

And STOP trying to use other people's lines. you merely cut and paste them. please FOO CHENG KAI, i know all of your tricks, so dont act so arrogant in front of me. you are the most sorry person i ever met in my life. really you are. Bastard!

AND one more thing, i can have to guts to say that i am not lying about anything i say on this entry. my friends know me well enough. i believe and trust my friends with my life can you do the same? i bet not. so please just leave my life alone.

I would like to hear views from you guys out there who see this entry. please say something about it. thanks!

2006-04-20T23:41:00.000+08:00

To the AssHole Foo Cheng Kai:

Bastards are always bastards. Bitches are always bitches. Foo Cheng Kai is a bastard. A mother fucking son of a gun who cannot seem to stick to his own circle of friends. I have seriously enough of you. You fucking piss hole. Get out of my life! Get your own life and stick to it. And one more thing, remember it! I don't fucking damn give a shit about your fucking theories. It really seems that you will be the first one whom i will punch. I am warning you. Go find yourself some female friends and stick to them. Leave my friends alone. You Fucking desperate piece of shit. And please stay out of my affairs.

I have told you nicely and i have stated very clearly that i have enough of all your crap. This is the last straw. I am warning you. I had fucking enough of all the shit you have given me in the last 1 year. I have tolerated more than enough of all this. Read this and heed my warning. Its the last i will ever be telling you.

I know you scheme against me. I know you send the email to our lecturer to blackmail me. You stabbed me in the back when it had nothing to do with you. Fucking bitch! You are nothing but a CHEAP piece of shit trying to try ways and means to get rid of the people that do better than you. I regret knowing you. I really do. So i suggest you go find yourself someone whom you can suck balls to please all your fucking ambitions in a sneaky despicable way. You do not deserve any act of kindness.

You have absolutely NO sense of sparing a though about other's feelings. You DO NOT have a limit to your bullshit even after me telling you i'm fucking pissed off with you!

DO NOT INTERFERE with my life!

The FUCKER is using the name [CK] on my tagboard. Just to tell you people that such bastards exist.

2006-04-19T19:16:00.000+08:00

Heys people! Just a gentle reminder...Especially to those in SP. I have changed course. Anyways, today was rather interesting, had lectures and met up with YC for lunch/high tea/desert? Haha! it was really nice talking...and helping her out. dunno. i feel good. haha! yc if u're seeing this...haha...dont hesistate to tell me ur probs..hehe! :P

Anyways, alot of things happened today. I changed a course, know more about relationships, more on the gal's point of view and all that. was a great day. We all learn from our mistakes. mistakes are obstacles that make you grow stronger and wiser so as not to make the same mistakes again. the future is in our hands, we choose how we want to mould it. so all the best to all those out there having problems. anything just call me. :) i'm only a dial away. hehe! :)

Oh ya..my Dear cousin RUTHY this paragraph is for U! Wah..i'm surprised u still remember me ar? haha! ok la i very bad say u till lidat! but..anyways i wanna tell the world that u very Nice! Caring! Loving! Responsible! And a whole lot of other good stuff! haha! too many to mention! ok la say you so nice later say i flatter you. haha! ok la! take care in Australia! :)

Thats about it. I'm waiting for TIME to tell me stuff. it'll tell u too. trust me. Waiting...Waiting...Waiting... haha! Cya folks around!

A Normal Day

2006-04-19T18:33:00.000+08:00

If u people out there have been wondering why i have been changing my blogskin so often like 2 times in 4 days is because my mood these few days have changed tremendiously. dont know why. well that is one of the main reasons, of course including things like i'm bored and i have not found a skin i like. yup.

ok...now to come to juicy part of my entry. My new class. i have not really made any conversations with any of my new classmates, except for the one i spoke to 3 of them when we 1st met. it was a very short talk. Anyways my class have only 23 students. of which 6 of us are together from our previous class and the other 17; 4 from DME/1B/22, the others are either smokers or students repeating their modules. kind of sucks but what to do? In any case i have to score abt 3.7 out of 4 for my GPA. hope to do better every semester :) Meeting up with both of my "sisters" on thursday for lunch! Yay! see u gals soon!

Hmm..now..for Char, Am, Dor...

Char: Heys relax abit abit k? don't so stress till like that :( Hmm..shall meet up with you soon when you are more free:) haha my treat! cheer up :) Share ur probs with me k? :) you'll feel better :) Take loads of care!

Am: Wei...you arh..tell you already don't talk to that loser you still talk. Make me give up on you too then how? Sighs. You better give me a good explaination when you call me tomorrow! Scold you liao! But don't worry u'll never be alone got friends around! :)

Dor: Hello! Thanks so so much for helping with my SRO. Cant thank you enough for all you have done :) Comment about my blog ok? haha! shall blog abt your kindness now..told ya i will! hehe! :P

"Doortje is a kind hearted soul. loves to help people." ok done! :P haha!

OkOk...going to get murdered by people after this entry! haha! Nitex people!

Can't Think Anymore

2006-04-16T00:55:00.000+08:00

i have practically no idea what i want to blog..but some how i just feel like writing something down here. spent half an hour tryin to come up with a poem to describe how i feel but nothing came out...brain is somewhat dead now.

anyways sorry dorrtje for neglecting u...quite hectic week i had and stupid sro is screwed up. can't play it. erm..chel, heys i'll cya on monday ok? erm..u tell me the timing ba..i see how ok? and thanks in advance for the cookies :) hope its nice :P

hmm...thats about all i want to say...oh ya..
char..heys cheer up k? dont worry too much. smilez~!

Screwed by none other...Mum.

2006-03-31T12:41:00.001+08:00

how screwed up can she get? its like seriously mad. gosh. and yet she puts up a nice front before guests. the biggest crap i've seen. anyways heck about this small talk. i'll type down the details now.

ok...went out for a 9.15pm movie and she grumbles. ok, fine it's late but come on, i dint really have a choice, its the only timing and the movie is gong to end soon. but she just had to say that any reason i give is absolutely crap. geex. nothing to back yourself up just keep quiet. dont come tell me all this bull. then worse still she must bring in my sis, bad inflence. blah blah blah. dots. then also bring dad in. geex. so whatever. diao.

come on. i'm 18 and you want to control me till 21? frankly i had enough. its not like i dint tell you that i'm going out. and yet you can come and tell me off? sheex. I wont let you spoil my day. so i'm just not going to give a damn. ground me for the week? to hell with it. not that i'm rebellious or anything, i just cant seem to tell you how i feel since you'll just cast away my words. and say its utter bullshit.

say i'm senseless...wow thanks mum. dots. like i care. stop using words that describes yourself. well i'm pissed and i really cant be bothered to argue with your nonsense. i like to say what i want. and u cant stop me. and about this overseas thing, get a life. you're using it against me? you got to be joking. whatever it is, the curx is that you just wont bother to listen to my explainations and i'm getting rather fed up with all YOUR crap! the whole family is like tolerating, just a matter of time till we blow up in your face.

everything i have to do you'll have to chip in. stick to your own stuff. oh and now i'll see you ever so often? my days are going to be drowned in agony. thats so amazing! As if...diao. if you want me to disappear forever, i'll do so. just you wait and see. you have been prompting me. we'll see what happens...we'll see...

Anyways today, went to play LAN and watched a movie. spent so so much today. rather broke. lets see...i spent: movie-$19, lunch- $6, dinner- $5.80, ruffles- $3.50, ezlink- $10, LAN- $10, cab- $8.90, evian- $2.10. ahh, heck...had fun...wells thats the whole purpose but spent too much...sighs. kk thats abt all, cya. School is starting soon! Hope the class will be ok. :)

I Juz Don't Get ya!

2006-03-07T22:27:00.000+08:00

i have absolutely no freaking idea why you hate it so much?
Why do you detest it?
Is it that bad that you must spite yourself to prevent it?
its just a day i'm asking for and you're at work.
its a day spent with dad.
something both we share and enjoy.
must you get in the way every time and ruin it for us?
i wish you could feel what i feel.

Asking is a must
and every single time i do so i'll be faced with so much resistance from you.
Frankly, it pisses me off.
dad is doing so much and yet when he wants to spends time with his son
you spoil it! purposely.
i'm just keeping it from you.
waiting for one day when i really get fed up
then you'll feel my wrath.
i just don't understand...

you put me down and lift me up
is it some kind of strategy? Used against me?
it sucks.
well you succeeded...great job.
i can feel the blood boiling beneath my skin
but won't let me release it.
what are you getting at?
whats the whole point of doing all these?
Is it to make my life a pain? And laugh it off when you achieve it?
EVERYONE ends up upset
i give up understanding.
its pointless.

Reporting to you is a must.
every single step is met with some resistance.
people have a life.
don't take that away.
please.

This entry is just my plain thoughts and anguish being put into words. Don't ask me why...i don't know. Just felt like it.

Reply to ur Post... :)

2006-03-05T15:23:00.000+08:00

Well, replying to your post...i do feel that i was indeed wrong for taking the dispenser. I mean, the issue is over and there is nothing much we all can do about it right? I've noted your point of view. And just to add...i did not take the better one when i had a choice of more than 3. Well, in any case i'm wrong to do that and i have accepted my mistake. I will not further rag this issue on and on ok? Its kinda pointless. Right now the only thing and probably the most important thing i can do i change. We all make mistakes but i'm not saying that what i do i not wrong. I thank you very much for replying my entry. Sincerly. I also thank you for being so a good friend to me. a person who tells me off when i do something wrong. Many do not have the courage but you do. So i really would like to use this opportunity to say thank you. You have kept in line from since god knows when. Truely, i have realse my mistake and i ask for forgiveness. I also feel sorry to hear that some of my classmates find me err...a pain? Would like to know who. Aanyways, the crux of this whole entry is to apologise to you as well its a lesson learnt. I have to change. That i understand. I guess the time when we quarrelled wasn't exactly a very good time. we were all stressed out weren't we? Once again, both were partly to blame for all this nonsense. yup, but its still my wrong doing that cause this.

Frankly, i will not continue saying and argueing. i accepted my mistake and lets drop this whole issue. What say you? Better off being friends then enermies :)

PS: well, u could try to use more lenient words...haha! :)

Okay thats about it...hope this will end after you see this entry. Wanna come for a hike with us? tomorrow i think...reply k? cya soon! God bless!

Duane

To Whom It May Concern

2006-03-04T14:23:00.000+08:00

This entry is going to be dedicated to a dear friend of mine whom i fear i might lose this friendship i share with him.If you are reading this, i hope you will look at it from my point of view. Ture, i have been avoiding this topic as much as possible but u always bring it up at the wrong time. therefore i wish to clear it once and for all just like u said u want to get it off your cheast. Same here.You should know who you are. besides, you have known me for sometime. i dont joke when it comes to these issues.

Firstly, you have been very cold towards me starting off this whole issue when i put my msn nick to "i topped one subject". you feel that i'm trying to show off. proud was the word you chose to use and i tried reasoning with you by saying i'm just happy that i did well. you thought otherwise and this led to a chain reaction of many wretched events.It started off when u told me, "stop calling me bro". i use this term to start off a conversation. its like "hi dude!". but u got all flustered up.i'm calling you bro because i regard you as a good friend who can understand my problems. but it turns out that even though u have already known me for 3years, u can still say i'm a person who is proud, spineless, not trustworthy, and have no sense of integrity. frankly, u have really hurt me.

This are the sentences that really hurt me the most:

1)Danetoushi Sarakugi says:

"maybe to u its no big deal. maybe for u,success is such a high lvl thing, u'll do anything to attain it. u'll make ur friends jealous, do bad things, scheme,just to haf success. no problem! cos tts u!"

2)Danetoushi Sarakugi says: "u knew u would get an advantage and u exploited it"

if you are wondering why i'm always not online. its because i blocked you and why i'm trying as much as not to bring about this topic is due to that fact that i don't want to flare up and get our friendship into a wrost state than now. also, taking note of my health. you very well know that i get hyperventilation when i'm pushed into a corner or when i get very stressed up. i admit i'm weak but i just wish you would understand. if you are thinking that this are all excuses then all i can say is that there is no point in continuing to read the rest of the entry. Because you will not understand me no matter how i put it to you.

Seriously speaking, i feel that you are compilling all the events of which you are not happy to back up your view when i took the scotch tape dispenser. i fully agree that i was in the wrong when i took the dispenser and hand it up for marking. but do you realise that i took it out of no choice? i felt terrible when i had to take a ready made workpiece. you will most probably counter this sentence by saying, "whatever it is, u have no bloody right to take the artefact.". Besides i was left with only 1 part for the workpiece i did on my own. But look at it on a neutral point of view. its not my fault that my artefact had to go missing. and its even more wrong and unfair to say that (i knew i would get an advantage and i exploited it) to gain the upper hand. Think of it logically. i did not have the time to think how much marks i would get. i just wanted to hand it up. And lets say even if i did think of it that way, the marks when totaled would be so insignificant. the 5-10 marks i got extra in my artefact would contribute to only 1% in the total.So stop all this nonsense that it is so unfair to the others. On top of that, i told our lecturer about this whole thing. he still accepted it because its only that extra part he did not mark which i got the extra mark. What right do you have to say i have no integrity? Wisen up and stop being so childish by saying "it doesn't matter" when i told you that i told the lecturer.U are behaving just like the friend of mine you passed negative comments about during the chalet.

Regarding the handphone issue. i agree i was not responsible to return you on wednesday. i totally forgot about it. You obviously did not spare a thought for me when u started this whole thing on the night just before my semester paper. Do you know how hard it was for me to continue studying after you shoot your mouth off at me that night? U just wanted to have it your way. Everything you say is superior to mine. and even if that is not the case, when i wanted you to stop, you refused. you said this, "Danetoushi Sarakugi says: lost for words?", after i said nevermind. don't you remember? Its obvious that you are trying to worsen things. Right now you can come up with all the reasons to still say that you are right and all. i'm not saying that i'm not at all at fault. but i just want you to think about what i said above. Is this how you treat a friend?

I was utterly disgusted when you brought up Hedi's case. It has no link to this problem i have with you. Stay out of it. i paid the money. Also, to top it of with all the shit you throw it me,you even had problems with me getting a distinction in oral coommunication last semester. i had my reasons for delaying the test date as i had to prepare for my cca. and do not say its all crap. i had enough time. what do you know? nothing! i was busy getting everything ready for the visit by our president. and it is entirely your fault that you did not do as well as me. in fact you had more time. And think about it again, the marks are not based solely on the written essay. its the teachers choice to give a person a distinction not me. So reflect on what you have said to me. and do not turn the thing around and say,"if you think you did nothing wrong, stay far away from me." its more like i'm the one who should say that.

In any case i'm sorry for doing the wrongs i did. i should not have taken the artefact.And your handphone, i'll return it.

The prupose of this whole entry is not to worsen the friendship i have with you. but to let you know that not all of what you have said to me is ture. i'm just defending myself with the truth you did not know. I really do not know why you are doing all this to me. Jealousy? i think not. you are not the type...In the end, its you yourself who have control over what you want to do with your life and what you chose to say to others. it may not hurt you but it has cut a scar so deep in the heart to know that a friend that knows me for 3 years is actually jumping to conclusions without knowing what the other side of the story is. i may not show it but ever since that day...it pains just to even see you for who you are have hurt me. Well, if your purpose of all this was to hurt me? well done! In conclusion, i propose to continue being friends with you with the truest intensions. Friendship is hard to build but easily broken. bear that in mind. God bless!

Drowned in my Books!

2006-02-18T23:46:00.000+08:00

The Exams are like so around the corner and what am i doing? SLACKING!

OMG i'm so going to flung my GPA.

Sighs...i have to chiong but like no mood!

Help me someone! Give me a tight slap or something!

Argh! It sucks to see people all mugging and i'm down here "trying" to get started!

Econs is as good as dead! Dunno wth is everything!

Jie...pris...or someone juz wake me up!

Might go out with Jie to study tomorrow... :)

Chances are still like near ZERO!

Books! Stress! Examz! ARGH! going nuts!

Dunno la...i just feel like i got no motivation to study! And hoping to still score?

OMG i can just dream on lor! Sianx! Dad say he had never seen anyone so lazy and not worried

Well the fact is, i'm worried. Terribly worried! I shall come up with a super grilling

and demanding scheldue to strive for excellence? well, i really don't know if still can anot?!

Who noes....haha might just be able to pull it off?

Okies...time to do C Programming! Argh now like 1230am! Haha! Off to the BOOKS!

Made many friends this year! haha...nice friends/people too!

haha...must thank Pris especially for keeping me company online...and thanks ar...

ask me help with ur research! People like Shusan oso another one! LOL!

But i like it...LOL...

My thanks extends to Chel too...for talking to me till the wee hours of the night! haha!

Eh pris dont go overseas ar...haha...Later miss u!

LOLx! Okies...i gtg hit the books liao! Cya people!

Short and Sweet

2006-02-10T23:09:00.000+08:00

The highlight for today is that i went to Charmaine's house for Chinese New Year? haha...Abit the late la...but the 15days not up yet! yay! Anyways...it was like raining practically the whole of today?! Argh! But no worries...i still went...

OK the last paragraph was lame... -.-!

Went to SRC for dinner and this is like the 3rd time her parents treat me for dinner! Oh no! i feel terrible..haha! Did loads of CRAZY things in SRC...too crazy to be mentioned...haha!

Bleah~

Frankly i'm too tired these days to type out a long entry..so i'll try as much as possible to keep it short and sweet... :)

And EVERYTIME i go out with her for dinner...i'll sure kena tortured...argh! but it was good...lol!

caught the fireworks display...was kinda pathetic..so short lor..and so little..haha!

Aiyah...basically thats abt all we've done tonite...its cool...hmm Valentimes day is coming up...

-hints hints- :) heez~

okok la..thats all for today...bye!

Chinese New Year

2006-01-31T00:58:00.000+08:00

Wow! i have been eating like a pig for 2 days le! Geex! had 2 reunion dinner with god-father and it was fantastic! On the eve of new year's eve, we had a dish which costs S$300++ wah...eat till like gonna puke! haha! but the food was terrific! Had abalone, shraksfin, dried oyster, black moss and blah blah blah...way too many to type it all out! in total i think we had around 12dishes? haha...including desert it'll be a 13course dinner! If i not wrong the dinner costs S$1000+++ dunno the exact amount cos i only heard dad mumbling the figures! haha! But dad like very short fused these days...dunno why ba..maybe cos of mum? wells, dun care la..cant do anything oso! hehe :)
that was for yesterday...now for today. hmm...dad was ok in the morning but was super bossy in the night and afternoon. was at the com throughout the afternoon downloading stuff! Yay! Last night slept late cos was over the phone...till abt hmm...210am! wahaha! talked so much nonsense! lol! what else...cous came at abt 6pm and god father came at 630pm. my dear niece dint come! haix! oh wells...ate and ate and ate again! but this time i could hardly get off the chair! helped grandpa down for dinner and served everyone else...thanks ar!
ok i shant blog no more...kinda tired...nitex people! And HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone out there!Smilez~!

Greatness lives on...in times of despair!

2006-01-21T17:35:00.000+08:00

Hmm...Yesterday was both tragically terrifying and exciting at the same time. Well, i shall start off with the horrible news that my Econs is going down the drain!Bye bye to my A or B grades! Sianz...the test is like total flung!I practically stared at a single question for 15mins out of the 1hour we had to do the paper and i dint have enough time to complete it fully! ARgh!Yesterday was like super hectic for me....woke up at 745am when class was like 8.00am! Rushed to sch like some mad lunatic and dad scolded me like nuts! Sighs...i sacrificed my sleep for econs and yet i got scolded...how unfair can the world be..haix..start off my morning in a foul mood but what the heck! was like kinda late liao..then had to do a CRASH COURSE for Electrical technology practical and thanks Yong teck and Razali!Owe u so much for helping me out!Thanks a whole bunch Dudes!After the practical test, cwe went to School of Bz to eat..then chiong Econs again! Sighs, its like kinda sad ar..study so much and yet at the end of the day...hiax!Oh wells...life is sorta unfair especially for me this week! We made hell alot of noise at the Quiet Zone in the library! kena scolded hehe!But who cares le...everyone was there doing last minute mugging!LOLx!

Proceeded to the test venue at 3.25pm when test was at 3.30pm...sat down and crapped like siao before the test cos we all noe can die le! After test we all "celebrated" literally! Knowing that most of us except Ng CK was going to fly kite le! Well, at least i dint die alone!Haha!The class ended at 645pm and i had to chiong down all the way to pasir ris for cousin's chalet!Stopped by at Bugis to get her a little something while Foo went home to bathe and accompany me! Thanks bro...for coming along or else i'd be like super weird there!Haha!

Arrived at Pasir Ris at 7.35pm. Walked to the chalet from the MRT Station.We wanted to do some exploring,later during the chalet but 1st i needed to get some batteries for my torch that i forgot to bring...was like so wat the hell! I kept on thinking i brought it along haix!Over le..lolx!I dint knoe till like after i bought the batteries at 1130pm..sighs!Bumped into God-Ma at Cheers! Woohoo..saved $1 for enterance fee! Hehe!Foo wanted my cous to come out and fetch us..but she dint wanna!Haha!Next time la Foo!Hmm..met my niece there and made friends with 2 of her cousins!Kimberly and Kenneth!Nice people they are..but..kenneth abit the off la! Whoops! Hm...then after abt 9.30 my God-ma left and hell broke loose!OMG!Her friend's started swarming in!And they weren't exactly my cup of tea..so i left her chalet at 12.30am!What to do...haha!I accomplished my task le..got cake on her face!Wahahaha! I left with Foo and set off to Dominic's house! Great fella! Let me stay over!Haha! Wad like running all over singapore lidat..but fun i'd say! Reached dom's house at hmm...1.15am as we went there by cab..haha taxi fare was like siao! $20++!Was kinda like debating in the cab with Foo on "life"!Haha! Great stuff!We went to Dom's room and settled down. Dom showed Foo his LOTR collection while i stoned away! But nvm..i enjoyed myself alot! I told them i dint wanna hear anything about work that night! But we still touched abit on our school work here and there..haha..so funny! Dom suggested we played Monopoly and was like saying we pronoused it wrongly like Mo-no-po-ly. While its pronounced as Mo-nop-poly! Ah...wateva lar!Lolx!Play from 2.30am this morning till 5.30am! Haha! But the good news is that i won! With $3150++ and a whole load of properties at hand! Haha! Yay!After which, We sang Christian songs to National Anthems to Britney Spears!Haha then it all went quiet...i think if i not wrong we all slept at abt 6am!

Woke up at about 12.30pm! Slept for about 6hrs or so...then believe it or not we had the most expensive breakfast in my life! Had Abalone and Superior grade Longan and Bird's Nest! It was like super cool! Woohoo! Enjoyed myself like mad!But shortly after our Excellent Brakfast, we had Nasi Lemak for lunch...eat eat eat like ding dong! haha! But i had to leave after all that..sighs...time really flies so fast when you are really enjoying yourself..sighs why?! Argh!MUm scold le...summoned me back! Oh great, thats the account of what i had done..a kinda long entry..but i dun mind..hehe..enjoy!

My Pathetic Life..

2006-01-13T21:56:00.000+08:00

i FINALLY blogged in like i so dont know how many donkey years! Haha! So far...C prog really sucks! And Engineering Maths is sorta cool...hmm..and guess wad i dont know what else to say! All the tests are pouring in like cats and dogs! And my this sem's GPA is so gonna suck! i'm aiming for "A" in Engineering Maths, Engineering Matherials, CRS,
Character Development(waste time module), Genes, Electrical technology. And "B+" in C prog and Econs. Oh wells...all the best lor...haha! Like so no hope this sem! Argh! Sucks! Kk...cya people...expected GPA is 3.5++ haha! Cya people ard! I'll hopefully be posting my photos i took in Australia - Melbourne...Thanks to Shusan! Haha! Lol!

The Past 3 Days...

2005-11-29T21:34:00.000+08:00

Well i shall blog abt the past 3 days...was kinda lazy to blog as was very tired too...hmm...where shall i begin? ok...erm...Saturday, 26th Nov 2005, went out with sonia and treated her to the Harry Potter Movie at GV Grand haha! Cos its her belated birthday present..lolx! Told me to be thrifty! Haha! Shant elaborate or else tongues will wag..haha!But as long as this is said...people will tok tok tok non-stop sianz la! hmm...and now for
Sunday,27th Nov 2005,woke up rather early and went for a swim at the yatch club. Have not swam for like ages...and i mean like 1 year plus..haha!Muscles all rusty liao..lol..stamina oso depleted to Zero...lol...then Dad arranged for a game of badminton in the evening..and guess wad..i have not touched my racket for ages too!Whahahaha! Played till i got blisters on my palm and now my finger is sorta swollen..haha...play and play and play...in the end i end up playing with the deputy director of EEE Geez!haha! Wah and i showed no mercy..literally..haha! well..hope he forets me..lol! thats about it la...apart from Monday, 28th Nov 2005, i stayed in school till 10pm ++ cos taking econs..sighs..but its still ok la...haha!Thats about it...and i shall keep my entry short and sweet..haha!Cya folks!

6A Gathering a Total Flop

2005-11-25T16:00:00.000+08:00

hmm...HAPPY BIRTHDAY Sonieeeeee! Haha! 15 le...next year "O" levels...all the best!Haha!Oh wells...today is the day i've been waiting for like hmm...a month plus..but in the end it was almost ruined...anyways..had the 6A gathering today at Marina Sq. And also the Bazaar at SP. So many things to do!BUrnt the mid-night oil to prepare a presentation for my gang..and then...in the end only like 8people came! Wth! Really piss me off...but oh wells..i shant get angry or anything..lolx...but more of disappointed..cos when one say dun come all dun wan to come.I think that is not the way i should be..and worst is that i'm informed to cancel it like 1hr to the gathering! What the heck...Nvm..those that came...i muz really thank u all for coming down despite knowing only so little people are coming. I know i made eugene come and seeweng...and especially sorry to Shusan..i kinda yelled at u over the phone..cos i was like so..i dunno la..u should noe...haha..Thanks Keith for making all the necessary last minute things...owe u guys a bunch..Thanks once again..
Its was a total screw up tonite...cos it damn badly organised..everything dint went as its suppose to be..karaok was changed to a pool, LAN and arcade session. i feel kinda responsible for all these i hope u guys accept my apology...was particularly hurt by Gerald...because he said this to me "u win me bcos u only use awp, u dont know how to use any other weapon" i admit i'm not a good player but u dont have to say this to me..i know i fragged u like siao but eben then...sighs..nvm, its over already...i kinda ignored him after that...I must say that keith and wei hao is like so pro at C&C general's wah lao..see them play like "GOD" lidat...make vast armies in a flash..Geez..and i tot i was good..haha...great game..Was Owning in CS dunno why...haha..but anyways..eugene and gerald have not played for ages i presume so..yeah..i was ruthless..and showed no mercy..sighs..sorry for that...haha...no hard feelings ya? well...the presentation was never shown to all except those that ride with me on Bus 10..i put in lots of effort in it..haha..okok..hmm..thats abt it..Shusan..u left too early la..nev see the presentation..will have a next time..maybe on my Christmas thingy ya?haha..kk..shall blog another time ba..cya!

Harry Potter and the MRT

2005-11-24T00:30:00.000+08:00

Today, went out with Charmaine to watch the Movie: Harry Potter and the goblet of fire. the show was way cool! But...tring to get seats for the show and looking for a cinema is a killer!Haha! 1st, we intended to go to Plaza Singapura so we took a train down to Dhoby Ghaut from Orchard. We Q-ed until our turn and then so sway! they go and announce that all the shows from 230 to 4 are all full house! ARGH!!! Wah sian..then waste ourt ime lor..haha..anyways i took out the Today papers and went to check the next nearest cinema for timings..then charmaine decided to go to Cinelesiure Orchard so we proceeded there..take MRT today like some fun fair joy ride lidat! LOLx! Went down to the MRT and boarded the train..little did we realsie we were heading the opposite direction..going to cityhall instead! Wah lao! Haha! Super joke sia...cos when we found out we both blamed each other..saying she followed me, and i said i followed her..wahahaha!In the end we got off at cityhall and ditched the idea of going to Cine. And to cheer our sad selves up we agreed that Cine would also be full house! Haha!Intended to go to Suntec Eng Wah to watch but it was like kinda far so again we ignored that idea and finally decided to give GV marina a shot! i prayed and hoped that there would be space, otherwise hmm...we'll be like so dunno what to do to kill time i think..haha! Was overjoyed when we got the tickets! Haha! went to Long John Slivers to makan..thou i'm still sick..but wat the heck..haha! Now coughing like siao..lolx..nvm..haha! We went for the 310pm show and it ended like about 550pm...and Ng was like calling and sms-ing me throughout the whole show..sighs..wells, according to my review of the show..the show is not bad..but lacks the development of the characters..All in all, it was great..graphics was spectacular...but they dint use it to its max potential..sad..haha!Scenes..were abit the short..esp the cool and exciting ones..ok shh...i shant say anymore..spoil the excitement for those who have not watched it..haha..okok thats about today la..had fun rushing about in the MRT...lol...bye!

Survivors: Pulau Ubin

2005-11-20T13:30:00.000+08:00

Well..i shall start off by saying what time i got up. ok...here goes nothing! Got up at 6am and was suppose to meet aaron(my twin) at habour front station at 7am but sadly...he was not feeling well. sighs. He was runnong a high fever of 38.9 so anways...was kinda sad. had dad to fetch me to outram station and met Foo at bugis. everyone was like staring at me when i boarded the train. looked like some terrorist with all my camping gear. especially the tent i had in my hand. fortunately, i was not hauled up by some security officer or else sure get into BIG trouble. with a 3.5 inch long blade in my pocket. haha!

Reached Tanah Merah at 8am and found that the others where already there! All except Ng hahaha! In the end only 8 people came! they were...Me, Dan, Cheong, Rq, Foo, Ng, Raj and Wahuan. Raj wasn't feeling too good..haha..i said he had "morning sickness" and the rest agreed whahaha! Doubt they don't know what it is..haha! i was of course juz joking only. We set off for Pulau Ubin via ferry from Changi Jetty at about 850am. At about 0910, the ferry reached Pulau Ubin. " Welcome To Pulau Ubin" That's what the sign board said, a simple welcome. The first thing we did was to go and report to the local Island authorities that we are camping in the Island. We at first approached the National Parks Board ofiice to register. They said we must report to the Police instead. And so we walk towards the police station. We were greeted by a friendly policeman who joked a little with us. haha! then after which, Me, Raj and Dan decided to take a van to the campsite with all the equipment while the rest cycled.The 3 of us reached the campsite..Noordin Beach. We set up my 6men tent and just before we finished, the others arrived on their bikes. They told us they saw this HOT and MARVELOUS girl tending to the bikes at the rental haha! at 1st i and Dan thought they were only joking and fooling around with us but when we saw this girl...she was SO CUTE! Dang! Dan made a bold move by saying a simple "hi" to her and she smiled back! He was like so over the moon the whole day! wahahahahahahah! Had lunch after that and i ordered a Wild Boar dish for $10. the guys made a big HooHa.. sighs...haha!they complained that it was too little..i mean what do u expect for $10?haha!

We returned to Campsite after lunch and Slacked. Chatted and had fun! I, cheong and foo climbed the hut but as i did so my V3 fell from my pocket!ARGH! The guys all roared with laughter! and i so dont know why! but luckly...my V3 is tough..and it was ok..Hehe! The 8 of us spent the rest of our afternoon at the beach. Some of them were preparing a campfire...while while Dan and I spent our time catching small crabs which dug burrows in the mangrove roots by the shore! Wahuan was acting Hercules and started using a log to hit the Poor innocent tree...sighs..sad..and thats when the problems began! Raj felt that his left eye was painful and irritating, so we thought it was a grain of sand that got in. Dan blew his eye and poured water but he still felt uncomfortable. we prayed and hoped that the pain would go away and that the sand would be out soon. we tried all means but all was left in vain. therefore we proceeded on with dinner seeing that nothing more could be done but to wait. Unfortunately, the pain grew unbearable and the guys decided to call the police over. the police despatched a jeep down and it came soon with 3 officers inside. They gave Raj eye drops to wash his eye but nothing happened. Raj decided to head back to the mainland to seek treatment at a clinic and Ng followed. We hiked through the night into the dense trees. was practically feeding the mosquitoes that night wahaha! Anyhows, Rq got most of it as he was the 1st man. lolx! we hiked and hiked till 12+ and decided to head back to our camp. Just as we were approaching the campsite, we heard barking. And to our horror, there were abt 6 wild dogs or perhaps dogs on "guard" mode. the 1st stupid thing e did was to shine out torches at them. their eyes let out a glow when the beam flashed across. that sent chills down our spines. 2nd dumb thing we did, was to enter the prawn farm to seek help. i mean, they were guarding us from entering the farm but oh wat the heck we did it and they suddenly appeared and angrily growled at us. 3rd thing we did was we kinda "walked going into a run" as no one wants to be left behind.haha..anyways, we called the police again after some thought haha! and guess wad! it was the same guy who took Raj and Ng back to the jetty haha! its was Sgt Lancer tan lolx! was great to see him. after which, we sat in his jeep and he drove quite fast i'd say especially on the sharp turns! Dan was like going to fly out of the door any second while he was excuting a turn. he drove past the place where we last saw the dogs and found only one lying on the road...so dots lor...haha! In the end, Sgt lancer allowed us to take a photo with him and the annoying SP students who woke him from his sleep whahaha! So cool! Well, we spent the rest of the night at ur campsite and talked...maybe discussed about how to get the HOT and MARVELOUS girl's number..haha! that was about it..and just to let u guys and gals out there noe who is reading tis entry...the Girl wasn't there the following day! ARGH! haha! ok...have fun guys! another Ubin trip is being held soon..haha! bye!

A Song...

2005-11-13T16:56:00.000+08:00

Backstreet Boys - As Long As You Love Me

Although loneliness has always been a friend of mine
I'm leaving my life in your hands
People say i'm crazy and that i am blind
Risking it all in a glance
And how you got me blind is still a mystery
I can't get you out of my head
Don't care what is written in your history
As long as you're here with me

(chorus)
I don't care who you are
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are
Where you're from
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me

Every little thing that you have said and done
Feels like it's deep within me(ooohh..)
Doesn't really matter if you're on the run
It seems like we're meant to be

(chorus)
I don't care who you are
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are
Where you're from
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me

Yeah eh eh..
As long as you love me(1x)

I've tried to hide it so that no one knows
But i guess it shows
When you look into my eyes
What you did and where you're coming from
I don't careAs long as you love me baby

(chorus to fade)
I don't care who you are
Where you're from
What you didAs long as you love me
Who you are
Where you're from
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me...

A Song that means so much to me...well...haha...time will tell...Lolx.Anyways...GoodNite Folks!

Whats Wrong Wif Me?!

2005-11-09T05:35:00.000+08:00

Some how i have absolutely no idea why i've been offending so many people these days...but anyways to all those out there whom i have offended, i'm sincerly apologetic. Please tell me what i have done to u to make u feel unhappy. Sorry guys...and gals...esp Belle and Am...

Thats all i have to say for now...take care!Sorry!

Duane

Happiness...

2005-11-07T02:30:00.000+08:00

Haha! Happiness filled my soul yesterday... Met up with Jobe, Jean, Bryan and Nigel. Dang man..."You Burn my Beehive!" Lolx! They stole my line!!! Haha...okok..back to the topic...ahem!

Was running very late as i had told bryan i'll meet him at 230pm at Far East Plaza. In the end was late because the restaurant was all close and had to make do with a junk one...haha..lunch ruined...lolx! Wells...made them all wait for me for about 30mins. Sorry guys and gals...haha...
Went to Heeren to get Bryan(the birthday boy) his birthday present. I carnt believe myself...i told him(bryan that is) go choose anything u wan. Geez! Haha...anyways spent a whooping 1hr+ juz choosing a wallet..haha thats not inclusive of the amount of time we spent walking and crapping around Hereen. ROFL!Made Dom and Jobe fume at the the 4 musketeers namely "Me, Jean, Bryan and Nigel" wahahaha! Oh wells..give the boy a break already..its his birthday!Haha!
At last we settled for a wallet for Bryan which i bought for him at "The Wallet Shop" that cost me $66.00! Argh! A big hole in my pocket! Better treasure it ar! Or else...Muahahaha!

Went to Bryan's house at around 530pm...stayed there till 1030pm! Haha! Watched Bryan play Resisdent Evil 4 and freaked out. *Heys...its not juz me..but the others too!* Had Pizza for dinner...crapped at the dinner table too..had loads of fun! After which i started a pillow fight with Jobe!Whacked her! Woohoo!But OBVIOUSLY she won't let me off for that! haha..got what i desevered!Lolx! Anyhows...i got the last laugh! Muahahaha! Gave her something which will make her suffer! Haha! Nah...lent her my SS notes...eh..muz return me ar...Do well! Pris..u are next...provided i can meet ya..haha..or i'll ask jobe to pass it to u?Haha...

Thats about all for yesterday...yupx! Anyways..nice meeting u Jean..haha always thought u were someone else!Haha!Ok..thats all folks! Oh ya..Hope u guys Like the new blogskin though i'm going to chage it real soon! haha! Await the new skin! Bleah~

*winks*Oh for those having their examz...All the best!
Haha! Tc people!

Duane...

A Bluff...I Hate To Do It!

2005-11-05T14:57:00.000+08:00

Hiding behind a mask filled with nothing but pretence... Today was a classic example...
Will talk about that incident later on...

Why my day sucks?
1. Ipod is gone forever as its spoil. They threw it away.
2. Went for dinner and had to look after sis and sis is damn demanding like I some slave
3. God cousin is ignoring me & is getting back at me. She hates me. Suan me...the whole night!

These are the reasons...Sis I just being too much... God Cousin is being...nevermind...those reading can guess...I shan’t say it out.

Today went for GEMs and it was so fun...very interesting...No mood to blog actually...but wtf! I don’t know wads “her” problem! She like is singling me out to suan and make me lose face. F*** la...sms my cousin that is sitting beside me...talking behind my back...Anyways...I really can’t take it...talk to her she purposely walk away! Does she know how I’m F***king feeling?! CB la...Tried talking and forgiving and tried making amends but she just won't allow it!

She got angry with me because I was in bad mood and sent her away...sorry i'm in the wrong i admit...I apologized to her like freaking so many times and yet she still give this to me?! For like 3months liao and she is still mad at me?! Enough is enough! Oh what the hell! I don’t care! F*** ...never have I used so many profanities in any entry! Tolerable is one thing...but don’t carry things so far as to do this to me! Whatever it is...if u are reading this...belle...sorry and please stop all this discriminating! Thank u!

Luckily not my whole day is so screwed...I got my Jaz Jie Jie to talk to me in the evening and my other friends...What I don’t get is that why must a relationship be stained so badly just because for such trivial matters?! Forget it...its pointless...by the way who is anonymous?! Speak up...

Jobe? U say I change? In what way? Haha... that’s all for today...

Time Flies...Don't Give Up!

2005-11-03T15:09:00.000+08:00

The years go by so fast.
Memories remain from the past.

You remember the times of good and bad,
the days you wish you'd never had.
Life can be good,
doing things you thought you never could.

Living your dreams
facing your fears,
with fun and laughter,
with heartache and tears.
Trying to express your feelings
wishing words would come your way,
All the thoughts in your headare all so hard to say.

To love and hate
To give and to take!
Searching for happiness
no matter how near or far.
Trying to find out the person you really are!

Living for the moment
giving life your all,
never giving up.
no matter how bad you fall
because life is life
it's good and bad.
At times you'll be happy.
At times you'll be sad!

Dedicated to those who are having examz..and those who need inspiration..haha hope i did a good job this time round..haha lolx...take care!

What Goes Up... Will Come Down...

2005-10-30T01:55:00.000+08:00

I know my previous entry made some people angry…but it’s the truth and that’s what I have to say in order to get things going the right way. Hopefully. I don’t know how life in school is for some of u these days but I wish u all the best! For some…next year is your “O” levels and for others, are your “A” levels…and for those who will have their Diploma at the end of these 3 years… All the best too…

I have finished saying my part for those who hate me so much as to not even tell me who you are but I know who nonetheless…and for all those who have been constantly mugging for the promos and getting loads of stress…yupx!

Erm…ok…so…now it’s about me…hmm…yesterday I went out with Charmaine’s parents and went to her concert. So paiseh had to get her parents to fetch me there too! Argh! Reason being, I could not take a bus there as I as too late and also, all the bloody cab lines are all busy! My gosh! Waited for at least ½ an hour for a cab to come by and had to fight/compete with 3 other passer-bys for a cab which never came…so diao! Haha!
Anyways, Charmaines' parents were very nice to me…really! Hmm…her concert was none other than spectacular haha! As usual…but I almost fell asleep when I had to sit through the last orchestra piece *not sung* but the violinist were great! After the concert her parents once again brought me out for dinner…that was about 11pm? Haha…Had to decide on where to eat and they asked me! I said the usual… “Anything” politely Hehe! First Char’s mum asked her husband, then she asked Charmaine, then asked me…why me? I’m just tagging along…haha…

Had intended to give Charmaine’s parents a box of chocolates or something but Shells station is so poorly stocked! Damn! Especially after they offered to pick me up…I actually called Shusan and asked her if she had chocolates to spare! Lol! Oh wells, everything went smoothly…I had a great day yesterday~!

Before I end off…I’m now taking a “GEM” i dint really thought I’d take! Argh! Now I’m taking Genes instead of Psychology! Dang man! Also taking a diploma plus next semester! Going to be super busy…sighs…Happy holidays guys and work starts next week for me…sobx! Haha…

Death Rides On Swift Wings

2005-10-19T16:34:00.000+08:00

Today dint go to work because today I’m going to get back my results and I pray and hope its going to be okay… sighs…I hardly slept the whole of last night as I was so worried I’d flung...have been counting down by the minutes haha! Lolx! Anyways I woke up at 4am and could not sleep ever since. And waited like a pantat till 8.00am as I could not stand the wait any longer so I went to on the com and login into my account. Mum and dad came out and surrounded me. Haha. They anxious too…lolx.. but unfortunately the results dint come out till about 1030 sian lor cos SP sever crash due to the overload of people rushing in. In the end, I had Daniel check my results for me as he offered. He read my results out jokingly so when he said I got a distinction I told him, “don’t come talk crap to me la” haha…little did I expect, it’s the truth! OMG! I cant believe it…but then I screwed my C.A.D and Electronics up too…so sianz…All in all, I scored 3A’s, 1 Distinction, 1 C+ and 1 D+ and class did very well too...in fact now I stand at the bottom of my class…

Went to the yacht club in the late evening with dad as he needed to work on a new breakthrough project which requires him to take measurements using sea water. But on the way there, I and dad almost lost our lives! Thanks to some bloody stupid buses! So irritating! Anyways that’s all for now…I’m very tired…bye.

...Muddled...

2005-10-15T18:12:00.000+08:00

“I guess I don’t know what I’m feeling right now at the moment. I feel like I’m being cast into some abyss. The feeling of eternal darkness swallows me. With no desire or conscious I fall aimlessly. I’m feeling light headed now…when will I reach the bottom?”

Well, this I quite what I felt when Beng told me that he and Jobe were an item. I can’t believe it for myself even with him telling me over the phone and hearing him spell it out directly into my ear! Gabriel did tell me over the phone some time back…I just can’t take it, and chose to ignore him. Saying it was a bull. Sighs, I just don’t know why this is happening to me even though I and her are separated and we both walk different paths now. Is it still the LOVE deep within my heart that still yearns for her return or is it because I still have this tinge of jealousy left in me? This I’m not sure myself. Besides, she has chosen to walk a path of no return. Imagine, there are signs that spell out, “50miles to doomsday”, “40miles to doomsday”, “30miles…” and counting…She is now at the 50mile mark…if she doesn’t change she’ll be at the 40miles mark in no time. I shall not say what the consequences are as I can’t apprehend the future in my own hands. All I can say is that I really hope she can stop being so stubborn and listen to the advice people around her is giving and change for the better. It will definitely not pay off if u should follow your will and pledge ignorance to others who seek help for you willingly without any regret. I personally feel that it’s a waste to live life so futilely. Grow up Jobe! I wish I could like just say it to her in her face…sadly I have neither courage nor the right to do so anymore.

He and Beng had a relationship which lasted for 2weeks. I really don’t know how to put it to her, “Its time to WAKE UP!” I need someone to slap her. Maybe. Sometimes. Probably. Perhaps. Just seeing her waste her young life away by being so obstinate is simply not worth it. It pains me to see such. Her cousin Bryan has tried but she still won’t listen. Her aunt, Bryan’s mum told me…from the way things are going, her parents will have no choice to send her to the girl’s home. Its really that bad…sighs. Anyhow, now I’m left with the only option…help her out and talk to her over the phone. If better Face-to-face (that will not happen). Perhaps, I shall step in too and give her some of my notes…hopefully I might help. God bless her. That’s all I can say for now. Till next time.

13th Oct 2005

2005-10-14T13:53:00.000+08:00

I have no mood today to blog anymore...wanted to blog but came here like nothing to say..anyways today i will juz type for the sake of typing...

things that happened today
1)Took leave from work
2)Went to town with my Jaz Jie Jie
3)Had a Japanese Buffet
4)Went for dental appointment
5)See Jie to Jurong East
6)Dinner
7)Mum irritated me
8)Phone confisicated!
9)Wateva...dont give a damn anymore!
10)Love my friends!

Thats abt it for today...sianz...

I'm Back!

2005-10-10T12:50:00.000+08:00

Well...hi...i'm back from my lovely cruise to nowhere...haha...its like i suddenly feel so so relaxed for like 2nights and when i arrive back at singapore all the stress is poured on me again...so sian..now as i'm typing this entry i feel so weighed down again...Sighs..Anyways, i shall now elaborate on the trip...

7 Oct 2005
1800hrs : Boarded the SuperStar Virgo
1900hrs : Had Dinner at the Pavillion
2000hrs : Had desert at the Mediterrian
2100hrs : Toured the ship
2200hrs : Went to room to settle down
2300hrs : Played C&C Generals on Bryan's Laptop
0330hrs : Went to bed

8 Oct 2005
0900hrs : Woke up
0930hrs : Ate breakfast at the Bella Vista
1030hrs : Went to look for photos
1100hrs : Played C&C Generals
1330hrs : Had lunch at Mediterranean Buffet and Terrace
1430hrs : Back to the room
1530hrs : Slept on the balcony
1700hrs : Played C&C Generals
1800hrs : Had dinner at the Bella Vista - chicken breast in cashew nut sauce
1900hrs : Went for Francis Yip Concert
2130hrs : Played arcade at the Oasis and used at total of 190tokens!
2430hrs : Walked around the ship, went to the library to check the internet rates
0100hrs : Played C&C Generals in the room
0330hrs : Went to bed

9 Oct 2005
0900hrs : Woke up
0930hrs : Packed up and went for breakfast
1000hrs : Went to the Oasis for the last time before we left
1100hrs : Went to Bryan's mum's friend's room to bid farewell
1130hrs : Got off the ship and got the baggage and stuff
1230hrs : Waited for parents to meet bryan's mum to pass something to them
1300hrs : Went for lunch at the World Trade Centre

That was about all that was done throughout the 3days onborad the ship. though i dint do many things, but i finally go to relax after like countless years.When i mean relax i mean to really feel as though there is nothing in your mind..haha!It was great!Missed people too...haha..and had like so many dreams..LOL..ok..thats about all i'd say for now..so till next time..Cya!

From 0% to -99% to 100%

2005-10-07T14:27:00.000+08:00

Good Evening my fellow folks!

*Lame* okok...haha...i was deprived of jokes today so liddat!LOL!Tomorrow me going on a cruise with bryan..hope its fun cos i never been for a cruise before in my life...this is the 1st thime..hope it'll be a pleasant one though..HAHA!
Shall blog abt this cruise nonsense today...cos nth else to blog le...so juz filling the space and stopping all those angry people frm giving me the "wah...sian never blog" attitude.LOL not like there is...haha...ok...my day started off grumpy as i have to wake up early in the morning again!!!tomorrow will be the last of these waking p early at 6am!!Woohoo..well, i woke up did all the stuff and sat in mum's car for 20mins just to fetch my sis to school and back...sighs anyways i got back home i rushed to my bedroom and crashed again! This time to be woken up by my handphone ringing.I was like...so sian diao cos i wanna sleep!!!But who knows!It was bryan..so i was saying..."yes bryan how may i help u" in the lousiest tone u ever heard sound like i just came back from the dead..HAHA!Bryan was like asking me...u sleeping ar?sorry...i was like come on...speak...lol..then he asked me if i wanted to go for a cruise with him..i literally jumped out of bed and asked him when it was?though i know my chances of going is like close to 0%?! haha!And he said its tomorrow!!!Geez!That makes my chances drop to like -99%!!!LOL...so anyways he told me to give it a shot at my mum...so i did as told and the answer was silence...haha...cos i told her not to scold me or yell at me...HAHA!i had to do that or else i'll get a rather nasty earful!Blah blah blah...so things went on...(i lazy to type le) and i was so so damn surprised!My mum allowed me to go!!!!ARG!!!!WOOHOO!!!thats was so unexpected!Dotz...haha..so here i am now typing all these...oh ya before i forget...i finished an anime drawing!!!A gal in bikini!!!HAHA!so HOT!Bleah~...i like it though mum said it doesn't look right..sighs!!!HAHA ok thats all for now...will blog when i get back..or if i lucky does the ship have wireless???HAHA...i'll find out...lol..ok...cya people!

Duane Signing Off...

Sweet Nothing-ness

2005-10-06T08:09:00.000+08:00

Hi People,

Today was rather interesting as gerald and bryan came over though many more were suppose to turn up at my house. Sighs..but it doesn't matter...we had fun!PS2 all the way...WooHoo!LOL! I bought the multiplayer adapter therefore now i'm able to play games to up to 5 players at a time!!!But sadly, i dint know that the adapter only works for original games...sianz lor...Haiz! So could only play one game, Dead Or Alive 2.I and gerald trashed bryan's ass...but on the fair side..we teamed up against him!Bleah~ very unfair!Whoops!HAHA!Everyday wake up at 6 all bcos of sis and mum...sian...anyways its all going to come to an end when dad returns home from Tokoyo..lalala~...My visitors(bryan and greald) stayed till 4.35pm...so now i'm here blogging..muahahaha..
Oh anyways, the 6A gathering, i doubt i'll be the organiser...cos everytime i organise and mum oso kinda fed up of me calling people especially the day before for the final arrangements and confirmations.On my part, i would like to maybe ask gerald to organise...and the organising community will consist of shusan, seeweng, yang cheng, gerald, me? haha i dunno lol!Anyways for those reading tis entry...i think the gathering will be held sometime from the 22nd to the 28th October.Haha..so i'll leave it to the people in this community to discuss abt it.LOL!
Last night i was talking to amber...she sound so totally differnet over the phone!Haha..then suppose to call me today if got problem with her physics but nth...haha meaning she is doing fine i guess...LOL..lets hope!Heez~!Oh wells...lets hope that all my friends doing their examz are doing well...God Bless them all!And to myself too...haha...damn worried abt my results...scarly later all fail...i can go fly kite le...baleh kumpong!HAHA!ROFL!Ok...thats all folks!

*Missing u*...sighs...

Cya!

The Hols Are Here!

2005-09-30T15:00:00.000+08:00

Woohoo!The holidays have arrived and the examz are over!!!Muahahaha...Now...hmm...now i'm bored...Sighs..For some stupid reason i seem to dread long holidays these days...dunno why..i want to get the feeling of achieving a long deserved break!But its missing!!! No no no!ARG!Aiyah...nvm...lets talk about the more impostant stuff...Who still owes me MONEY?!Every year its the same...I'm the loan Shark!ANd if i do forget...they don't seem to tell me...sighs...some friends...LoL!Okay...so...Foo Cheng Kai(most wanted) -$40, Daniel Loy -$9, Hediyato -$9,
Rui Qin -$6, Yong Teck -$9...i think thats all...haha!Oh ya...Yang Cheng still owes me $11 for the movie ticket...i think it was last year or the year before!Haha!

*$$$ makes the world go round!*
Muahahaha...sound like so rich liddat...lol..actaully not lor...haha!

Hmm...Oh Yesterday went to explore Sentosa's Forbidden forts...actually more like lost forts ba...went to fort Serapong..nxt one is fort Imbia..but have to go find it..haha...the expidition was totally cool!The journey was suppose to start at 11am...but in the end due to some delay it started at 2pm!Nvm...still got there..LOL!Had to climb through the dense "forest" and withstand all the mosquitoes...rui qin was damn scared of contracting Dengue..haha...finally we reached the site...and took some photos of it on the outside..took out our newly bought torches and illuminated the way in...was so damn dark inside...can cant see ur finger even if it was in front of your face. Its pitch black. We went in bravely like heros..Bleah~!Walk and walk, deeper and deeper into the fort while Foo was giving us HISTORY lessons on the way in. HAHA!very interesting i muz admit! Was very surprised i dint go into hyperventilation cos i'm clastophobic...a gush of cold chilly air swept past our faces as we went deeper...we crawled through a tiny hole just big enough to fit our shoulders...thats was when i started to panic abit cos i tot i would not be able to do it..eventually..i did..haha..proceeded further into it till we came to a ladder that leads 3 stories down...behind the ladder was a hatch with thenames of soilders whom went down...looks like those who went down never came up.So spooky..took a few shots inside in total darkness and of all things my camera's LCD screen must fail on me..so aga-aga snap through the pin hole..hmm...then that was it..so fast lor..i really wanted to explore more but..could'nt..sianz lor..haha..Cheong Keat kept on saying...Foo use the flood light mode...Duane..use the spot light mode...while he himself use the flood light. Rui Qin was in front. We had to light up the way for him for he came with nothing!haha!He came in Orchard-wear like going to town liddat!LoL!Foo gave him a lousy torch and he was fed up with it...But better than nothing la...next time rmb to bring ur stuff hor Rui Qin...muahaha or else we leave u there alone!!!

After coming out of the fort, Rui Qin wanted us to act like we are looking for things...LOL..so Funny! Cheong took out his torch in broad day light haha! we all followed...like some bunch of jokers sia!Went back down hill and came across some super old building which dated back from 1936!!!OMG!Haha!Snap a few shots...then headed to Palawan beach..on the way back i suddenly got a freaking muscle cramp!!!So bloody painful! Almost fell! Worst thing is...it happened 3 times!On both legs...The cause was lack of salt in my boby..also i never go do warm up..not used to this..haha...anyways the trip was so so fun!In the end only 2 of us went...Me, Cheong, Foo and Rui Qin. The others were missing in action(MIA). Missed out loads of fun though...haha..perhaps our next expedition u all come ba...was thinking of adding photos to my blog...let all those reading see the suvivors of the fort expedition!HAHA! and the overnight cycling freaks!LOL!

Foo and Rui Qin came over to my place later that day and stayed till 1030pm..had pizza with my family...foo bloody joker..out of the blue ask my mum if my family speak cantonese at home..then mum come suan me...arg!Oh wells...but i must also stae that foo is a very sociable guy...too socable in fact(bad point) u noe wat i mean rite guys(DME 1B/23 peeps)..haha..one more thing...i pissed daniel off big time yesterday..sorry bro..was not in a very good mood...hope u forgive me...sorry..lets bury the hatchet k?Smilez~!

These few days i have been sleeping at around 3 to 4am daily!Geez...so today me going to sleep earlier..uh yup!Dad found me a job to occupy me during the hols but no pay!WHY?! Now i have to fork out a much greater sum of money for building a computer from scratch..with the help of Foo, daniel, and the others...those who noe com...feel free to help me k?haha!Like Shawn Koh...that one is Com genius!Well, the hols are here...so might juz as well make the full use of it..yup!All the best for my semester results!OMG! i hope i do relatively well...so worried...
Cya people!

The Pain That Never Leaves

2005-09-23T14:36:00.000+08:00

Today's entry is going to kinda short as i predict...well today i got to know abt a friend whos friend has recently passed away. i truely feel very sorry for asking her why she was sad these days...so i went to read her blog and as well as her other friend's blog...they all missed this guy who is only 15 and have cancer. every blog i come across be it pris and sheila, they all missed him so dearly. as i read their entries i feel so touched and sorry for them.I know how it feels when u have lost someone who is juz so close to me..it sucks. to one of the gals, things happened so quick. all the things kept in her poured out when the time was already too late. the guy loved her but she dint say yes until it was too late. this really moved me so so much..had that urge to juz comfort them..and tell them its all part and parcel of life. anyways, i went to this guy's blog(jasper) and tag on his tagboard where all those who missed him so dearly tagged. those who love him so juz could not help but say it all out. i was moved once again.i went to read his last entry which dated a 4 days befroe he passed on. his last words where,"i'm not feeling too good feel really sick...and i'll blog more tonite".he never got to blog again.Though i do not noe this guy at all, i just had that feeling to tell him that all his friends out there loved him alot. and that he'll be loved.

this entry is not abt me actually but i juz felt like typing it out so tell all those who are looking at it how fortunate they are. life should not be wasted and lost trivally. take this advice and move on with life. at times u may feel that the world is coming down on u but always rmb, that there are those who love u so much more than u can imagine and perhaps what they will only tell u far too late until it happens. So, guys/gals reading this, please value ur friends, life, family while there is still time.

If either pris or shelia is somewhat reading this or knows abt this entry, i send my deepest condolences to u all whom are friends of this guy- jasper. Take care always!

The past...the present...and the future.

2005-09-20T15:12:00.000+08:00

Haven't been updating my blog from since god knows when...been really busy lately...seems like another excuse though but poly is tough.HAHA!
Anyways i juz out of the blue felt like blogging today...guess today are one of those days when i feel very with myself..yeah..listening to "Dance with my father" by Luther Vandross...very nice and touching song...sighs...today i had my thermofluids semesterial paper and i think i kinda screw it up...very disappointed...but who knows...maybe by some bloody twist of fate i might do well?nah...i'm happy to juz get a B though my aim is an A, actually a distinction...(getting more and more ambtious ya?)
Dunno for some reson this year i'm taking my grades very seriously...its really different..haha...sarting to become serious..and aiming for distinctions...but sadly...none.Signed up for a twin diploma. now waiting for my sem results to see if can qualify for it 1st..hope can...if not then..so be it lor...haha..can concentrate on my major - mech engineering. i'm suddenly reminded abt all those people who are dear to me...my parents, cousins, friends...maybe its the song..but i...not sure...i can still vividly remember the time when i had my break up with my ex...it was so painful...actually cried..hard to admit..but yes nonetheless. the thoughts racing through my mind at that time was like...why? why did she do it? well...i guess its over..she's changing now...not for the better the way i see it..going gothic..sighs..eventhough we are not together anymore..i'll be there to help her..(guardian angel?)Nah!! haha!not that noble...LOL!reminded of my grandma..and all...sad sia..anyhows, its all in the past le...i still keep the memories..the nice ones..so not that bad ba...in those times when i was all down and all that, i would like to still thank those who stood by me and cheered me up..very grateful to all those people!Thankz!
Have been getting into lots of trouble these days...with mum and dad...and now even in school(the anna case)...dunno whats wrong with me...i'm not like that?!Juz feel that...i'm also becoming very easily pissed off...for no apparent reason?Owe loads of lunches to Chel...and a testi too..Sighs...
Today, daniel punched Foo in the head while studying in the library...foo kinda pissed him off big time..but he shouldn't have done that...well not like i could stop him...would have if i could. thermo was a killer...hated the paper today..studied bloody hard for it and yet i cant score!Damn frustrating!Went to Jurong point after the flunked paper and ate at some foodcourt...aiyah..haha!Was expecting something more decent?Called dad at abt 10pm and he complained.Sianz.Was surprised to bump into my dear jazreel jie jie there!**insists i call her Jie as she older than me..Bleah~**
Recalling the past, it has been 4 months in SP...time flies..like ending the year already!Hmm...made quite a no. of friends in poly this year...and even one not from poly?!Met her through ushering...and managed to get her hp no. on the very day!haha...dint blog abt this earlier...secret..!

I know my this entry very very confusing...jump back and forth time...lol..have fun figuring it out ba!Lol!With this...i would have failed OC..0 marks for my arranging...haha!who cares! dotz!

Oh wells...i think i've said what i wanted to say le..thats all folks...till nxt time!
**the ending kinda rush cos mum is in the famil area...whoops!shld not be using the laptop to do this!Muahahaha!Ok..gtg..cya!

Sad Me...Life Sucks

2005-09-02T15:43:00.000+08:00

Well, as the title has said it my life sucks mainly due to the people around me and well my marks and all that.but on the brighter side i got others who care for me...yeah!Anyways, i guess daniel has really changed kinda much since the time we 1st started school.I don't know....i mean i feel as thou he has become much more sensitive too?Besides the fact that i' sensitive and he always says that abt me.For those reading this entry, esp u daniel, i juz hope that maybe u'll find out and see what i juz can't tell u in the face.Its difficult to do so...probably thats why many people in class dont really talk abt each other in front of that perso but rather behind their backs if u like to put it that way...i know its not good but its not an easy task.Loy, i have read the lastest entry of ur blog and u said that i'm the one leading all of u to TB but like i said i only gave a suggestion and nth more. I don't know why you are putting the blame on me but anyways its the past. I shant rake it up anymore. I juz hope u will utd what i and the class feels (not abt u) but abt us. Alot of things are hard to explain but its this way and i guess we have to juz acept it. You have been a very good friend but i advice u to listen to others ard u esp when u are not in the best of moods.I know now if u are reading this, u'll probably feel that i have no right to tell u all this but i feel that i shld at least inform u.Thats all.I actually feel happy that u dint quarrel with cheong today.actaully i was already very happy for u last nite haha!Juz cheer up bro and dont take things like they are always bad and that people are always out to get back at u.Life is not that bad.No matter what, i'll still be ur friend.I'll still look up to u as my mentor haha!Take care!

Now abt the happier part of my life...hmm...did quite ok for my OC written speech...got 79 again!arg! same as my presentation...sianz i dont know if i'll get a distinction for it now..sighs...well its ok compared to the class so ya i'm kinda happy...yupp...erm...oh ya!i finally got my leader self back in form again?haha!Flung my mechanic course work!shit!but the teacher still said i can still get a distinction if i do well for the next tests!woohoo!Will go chiong and study hard le!yea!hmm...watched the Movie: "The Maid" with Rui Qin...got to know him better after that...so happy!lalala~!But the best thing is...i always have Belle, Chel and Shusan to cheer me up and tlk to me when i'm down.There are others too haha but i shall be bias and mention only the best!haha!Joking!Apart from all that i still got my stupid IDEA prototype and other stuff...its cool but like D&T do so much and suck up so much of ur time sianz! Dint see teachers on teacher's day thou...sighs but might visit Mdm lee and Mrs Hoh soon...Dint get into SPARC but still feel ok haha!dun care them la!LOL!Arg! STM setting in....can't rmb what i'm suppose to write but anyways if i do rmb [of which i think i will after i post this entry](how frustrating)!
Ok Ok...better go le...till i rmb what i'm suppose to say...haha!bye guys!

Shadow Engulfs Me

2005-08-24T13:21:00.000+08:00

Taste the liquid crystal sky
The sweetness of the night
Feel the depths of darkness cry
The stars are tears of light
The mirror moon is hung with care
From silver cobweb strands
The darkest backdrop lingers there
Held up with giant hands
Deep blue and endless lake of space
Enchantment of the eyes
A swinging sheet of splendour grace
Encompassing the skies
No powers can support that ball
No powers can impound
One day from out the sky will fall
And bounce across the ground
An icy pool of moon-spun light
Surrounds that hoary sphere
Intoxication of midnight
The wine of shadows here
When day retreats to hide its beams
Then is the night unfurled
And peace seeps out in glorious dreams
Inebriates the world

Long time no Write liao

2005-08-17T09:20:00.000+08:00

haha sorry la people...really busy all these while no time to blog..okok so now i have to quote shusan ya?seriously i forgot what u said...hmm care to further elaborate?lol!oh...ya..since this is the 7th month..means that the gates of hell is open...and so i have to be extra precautious...and lemme tell u guys a story...titled: the haunted phone!

the story goes like this...On the night after the opening of the gates of hell, i asked Miss Yow to call me up since i had nth to do...wanted to chat with her...Damn..she's a person so hard to persuade...but oh wells eventually i did...haha!So she called me...and we talked.(getting boring ya?Go sleep la!**haha!)as we were 15mins into the conversation...i heard a eurasian gal talking to me..and then there was silence from Miss Yow's side...i tot at first it was her playing some stuuuuuuuupid joke on me...until i recieved an sms from her saying there is smth wrong with the phone and she put it down.WHAT The HELL!!!i freaked out!I was like talking to the gal for 10mins or so and i got that sms, still thinking it was her...i played along thou and the gal sounded as if she was talking to me...she answered my questions...(not exactly) but there....GEEZ!It was so real!!!!OMG!anyways i called Miss Yow Shusan back and told her my story...damn if it was in broad daylight i would not have been so terrified!but it was at night...going to 12!!!ARG!!!But seriously...i kinda like so called "talking" to that gal...hope that happens again!Lolx!Yupp...should end here la...no time to write more..haha.Bye ppl!should be blogging more often this month..haha..kk..gtg!

Chalet...tiring...in doubts....

2005-07-29T12:43:00.000+08:00

Phew!Juz came home from Class Chalet...so so tired!We went overnight cycling from Pasir Ris to Bedok Jetty...wah...damn long sia...but fortunately got pit stops in between...was a rather violent journey thou...haha...but in the end all went well...guys..you should know the reason ya?LOL!Anyways...lemme discribe it to all those that missed out in it...

Firstly, we all were supposedly to meet at Pasir Ris MRT but, practically all met at Aljunid instead!HAHA!Sorry hedi!We waited for daniel whom said he will arrive there in 5 mins, took about 15mins in the end...but who cares...we all met...then we made our way down to the chalet.
Cheng Kai(German) was Freaking entertaining throughout the whole thing...from the way there till on the way home!Super funny sia!Sure to win the Grammy Awards for the most hilarious guy of DME 1B/23!Secondly, we all were cooped up in the room...but that dint matter much as soon i, daniel, razmy,rui qin and razali went to play street soccer at the nearby basketball court till some small kids came and challenged us to B ball...until then...i know that we are so gonna "DIE". They trashed us erm...think about 5-0!!!All stunned sia!Until some angels from the sky came down and turned the tide around...haha!Then we proceeded back to the chalet for BBQ which was managed nicely by Cheng Kai(ng) who marinated the chicken wonderfully...

I and Clement were suppose to go night fishing but i decided not to as i had no mood and also dint wanna gie up the night cycling...BUT the other reason is that "Clem, you will find it hard to learn at night in pitch black conditions"...sorry clem...promise to bring you another time...Following the BBQ...we tried killing time on the X-Box and the arcade...which we did...lolx.Aiyah there so much more to say...so next time you come and you'll find out k?haha!

In short, we had a heck of a fun time even after the chalet as we went to play LAN for only 1.50 per Hr...so cheap!!!Played till abt 3pm then i rushed down to Bugis to meet Charmaine. Talked loads of crap with the guys during the whole thing but we have bonded so closely and valued the importance of friendship that brought us together!It was GREAT!Hope to have something of that sort with you guys soon k?All the best for next term!It comes.....

**That day...something happened and i'm waiting for a/an answer/reply...(still waiting)...**

For the week...Summary

2005-07-22T11:50:00.000+08:00

Sorry guys...dint have anythime to blog as this was the exam week...sighs...anyways...my week was super hectic with me being the leader of 2 groups is totally no joke! I'm glad thats all over for now! now its time to relax and let the slacker king kick in!Haha!

Now i shall describe in detail what happened this week...hmm...
(1)Had to chiong for IDEA and OC presentations last sunday and throughout the week before.
(2)Screw up my OC but did relatively fine in IDEA.
(3)Had mechanics test on Wednesday - did quite ok
(4)Had stupid CAD test today and screwed up big time!arg!
(5)Likes someone but...waiting for the right time...
(6)Bumped into people from MI that i dint know is from SP...LOL!
(7)Bumped into Chelmin at foodcourt 4
(8)Dint get to lunch with Jazreel..erm...i think 4 times? sighs..gal..you owe me lunch!haha!
(9)Got Tonsilitis and a cold today...of all days!
(10) And NO electronics test tomorrow!woohoo!

Basically thats all for the week...but rather down throughout the whole week...sighs...no matter...i hope things will change for the better!Smilez~!

Operation: Project Rush

2005-07-04T10:15:00.000+08:00

Today...i spent the whole day at home doing my Oral Communication project.Sian is one thing but...i found it rather cool to see my masterpiece almost completed!Haha!A rather hard topic but...still manageable.Yeah!Oh ya...besides stay at home and mugging on my project...i went out with dad and mum to get CRABs!Finally i'm going to have mum's famous chilli crab!Haha!Had to kill those stinking things...eew...and the method is...i would describe...sadistic!Anyways now i got my hands reek of it's s*i*t!Ugh!

Got two projects to rush and do well...cos it amtounts to 80% of that particular module...oh wells i gotta be going to do them now!Catch you guys later!And you out there!Yes, the one looking at this screen now...i need your help...Smile!

**one more thing...Sorry chelmin...

Between friendship or relationship…choose it…

2005-06-27T15:00:00.000+08:00

A hard decision to make for someone who wants a friend to remain only as a friend and not a soul mate. And an even harder decision to make for a soul mate that finds that his/her partner seeks the comfort in a friend rather than in him/her. These decisions may spoil relationships and friendships due to the deadly factor present in these situations, namely jealousy.

Friends can be close or distant, of which everyone knows that. But do they know that friends- no matter how distant they are, are still very important? Friends share this special bond with you that parents can never understand. Though they say they have experienced much there is to know about life, they are still unable to unravel this closeness friends have between one another. To tell you the truth, even boyfriends and girlfriends sometimes lose out to just casual friends when it comes to talking about problems he/she faces. People just don’t understand why it is so hard to tell one’s problems to parents and partners. Basically, every blinking person on this planet has come across this phrase in life. And which bird- brain ever said that it’s the character of a person that determines how he/she reacts to such situations? Its utter rubbish! The naked truth is that people tell friends their problems mainly because they do not want to hurt the spouse or even because of fear that something might happen to them if they told their parents. Jealousy thus buds from this very reason. Jealousy is the beginning stage of which hatred and anger develops, which could lead to effects beyond one’s imagination. But as we all know, feeling jealous to some extent is the way life conducts itself. Because if jealousy is entirely not present, how can one know that his or her spouse is actually still loyal and faithful after all this time? This is only one of the many examples I can pick out in life in relationships. One can say that he/she not jealous but deep down inside it’s a raging inferno ready to pour out its fury through an eruption of anguish. We must indefinitely, find out the cause of jealousness for one to be able to tackle it and keep it under control.

Relationships are very complex issues that subject variously to various people. I may not have watched the movie “Hitch” but I sure know it’s something that needs lots of advice and experience to get it through in working -order (insert laughs, followed by long sighs). On the whole, its one thing that should not be fooled around with. Getting into a relationship comes great responsibility and one should be fully committed when in one. You’ll be taking a bull by its horns if you fail to do so, as it hurts both parties real badly. Especially, the one on the other end receiving all the crap he/she has to put up after going through so much to nurture this relationship from scratch. Sometimes, it’s just so difficult to get along well in a relationship. I mean in all relationships, there’s bond to be quarrels due to the lack of common ground on both sides but still, constant disagreements are just going to make things worst won’t it? Just…why can’t people understand?! Why can’t they look at matters in other’s point of view, then life and relationships would be so much less stressful and problematical. It’s evident that many people these days, are turning to being single for life due to all the complications they have viewed in their life after people gets into a relationship. They would thus rather choose friendship over relationship causing a drop in the global population, which in time may lead to the extinction of the human race! The choice is in your hands, choose to seize it or let it go, it’s entirely up to you! Good luck!

Life is...some what...???

2005-06-22T12:50:00.000+08:00

My past few blog entries have been nothing but my sad pathetic life ya?And its still carrying on...arg!Oh wells...today was very tired i class as yesterday was out till 1215am in the morning with my "sis".Went to catch the PCK muscial with her and some of my SA frienz.Had loads of fun!Those present were...Beng(who lost his way), Kenneth(who made me wait at bugis mrt), Mun Hon(who were with his new SP click and had more than 75% of those who he brought older than him...senoirs i guess?)...haha...including Me and Charmaine!The begining of the musical was kinda lame but after the interval things turned for the better!wooohooo!Shant specify every bit of the things that went on but...i muz say...the $85 seats sucks!So pissed off when those people who paid only a mere $14 got to seat so bloody close to the stage and we were like...50meters away!Geez!What to do?!Nvm...

Oh yes...today...as i was saying...went to Foodcourt 6(Er Mei San) to makan...then bumped into another sis...this time its Chelmin...{heys sorry dint exactly fet to tlk to you..haha maybe next time k?}Went to savour the famous fish slice beehoon that aint too tasty but its rather okay thou...then went to acknowledge my mum's friend that happens to be my C.A.D teacher...but she's not too bad despite her temper when myclass makes a big hooha abt the little things...that life i suppose!Heez~

Went to bowl after much contemplating and persuation and got TRASHed!Still managed to get a few strikes and some spares but Fred and Hedi owned us all!Way to go guys!Keep it up!Went back home at 330pm and turned on my favourite "darling"-Ps2 haha!Don't think so much you guys..lolz!Only the Ps2!Then...things happened and kinda ruined my day...but i got to look outside of the box and look at it other ppl's point of view...okok shall end here...till next time ba!

The Last Goodbye

2005-06-16T13:34:00.000+08:00

I still miss you...But not like I did before.
The intense aching I felt,
Isn't there anymore.

I still whisper your name...
Not as often as I used to.
Now it may be once,
Before the day is through.

I still hear your voice...
Replaying, in my mind.
But it's fading now,
Soon, silence I will find.

I still long for you...
To feel your touch.
But, it's not like before,
I don't dream it as much.

I still think about you...
And wonder how you are.
But my feelings have changed,
And they don't go as far.

I still feel you sometimes...
Maybe you're thinking of me?
Or maybe it's just a little memory,
Of how it used to be.

I still love you...
But it's just not as strong.
Because I'm letting you go now,
So we can both move on.

I still hear you say...
No one will love me like you do.
That's so hard to believe now,
After the hurt you put me through.

You still have a piece of my heart...
Because I always felt you here.
Now, I'm hoping and praying,
That, that too, will quickly disappear.

This will be my last goodbye...
I've nothing else to say.
Everything I felt for you,
Can now just fade away.

The poem was created with no intention...was juz bored so wrote abt my past...haha!

Manga Camp...

2005-06-11T13:37:00.000+08:00

Hi people...now having manga camp in SP in a room with totally no air conditioning!Bloody hot sia!So stuffy too!Juz had lunch and now stoning with my camp mates which are drowning in complete boredom...its very badly organised thou but what the heck!haha!At least we'll get alot of attention!lols!Only 4 people turned up!haha!now they all watching some anime show...ugh!Can't learn to watch those type of things!I guess what will be up next is twister...don't now wat the hell is its purpose..anyways so far i've learnt how to draw the basic face features..Oh well...i better end here or else my teachers come and GAN me...haha!byes!

Birthday...and yet...sighs.

2005-06-08T01:26:00.000+08:00

Oh wow...its the 7th of june and its my birthday.Juz great...grandpalanded up in hospital on the 6th and mum flew into a rage on the 7th which HAPPENS to be my birthday...sighs.Anyways its all over i guess...Oh wells...

Today i went to school as per normal...and it was juz the typical school day with nothing out of the ordinary.Had lunch at Foodcourt 4 with shawn and sadly he dint treat me!sobx...haha!Nvm..till next time ba...actually his company is more than enuff lar...haha!Anyways now at school writing this cos got no time at home to do so...sighs..so sad..Aiyah...i gotta go le..till next time ba..haha!And to all those knid and loving souls out there who sent me a sms and called to greet me happy birthday...thank you thank you thank you so so so much!

Unhappy...

2005-06-02T10:45:00.000+08:00

Sighs...unhappy me again...oh well...wat to do?People like me depend very much from the peple around me to make me decide my mood for that particular day but i guess today wasn't THE day for me...sianz.Sometimes i wonder if those people do actually think about what others are feeling or maybe they juz care solely about themselves without even giving a thought about others?Sighs..it puzzles me.

Anyways today i had a lecture and a tutorial each.I muz admit that mechanics is kinda fun though it is abit the same as A-Maths.Learnt about Vectors and Equilibrium Conditions.Being taught by a nerd looking teacher isn't all too fun but he delivered it well and we all got the facts right on.Sadly this lecturer will only be with us for about 2 more weeks, so i'd better make use of this time to absorb as much as possible.Today, also did loads of excercise sia...went walking to Foodcourt 4 then 5 then to 4 again all bcos of our one and only "jap" boy.hahax.Heys no offence!Lunch juz eat nearby next time k?tsk tsk.

After all that tedious walking we were still not spared...arg!CK you are gonna play for that!Joking joking...hmm..then went to clementi to play pool(not suppose to but went for an hr)
Oops...sorry mum!Played 2 games and got trashed...sianz.Oh well..i was forced to join in..so..doesn't matter..hahahax!

Got home before 3pm, fell asleep and begged dad to drop me for my piano class.Man...he was pissed off at me for making him drive all the way there juz to drop me..heez..special treatment..tsk tsk!Anyhows my music teacher dunno wads her problem today..like got some attitude prob liddat..scold me for nuts lor..sigh.Then worst part is that she chased me out of class when the class is over..kinda sick of that thou but i can t do anything..nvm..i shall endure it or else sure got another big issue.

Before i end off...erm..i wanna wish all my friends who are overseas now a safe trip back and hope you all had fun~!**saw smth kinda sick on the road today..think its some animal which had entrails spilled out due to the vehicles running over it..ugh!Shant gross you all out anymore..hahax shall end here!Bye!

Dreams

2005-05-25T16:22:00.000+08:00

Dreams are basically a person’s deepest thoughts, emotions and his/her greatest fears. Dreams can be nice, lovely and pleasant and most of the time totally unrealistic but on the other hand they can be rather nasty, scary and heart –wrenching…those dreams are best referred to as nightmares. Dreams are visual conceptions of how we humans perceive life and want life to be in the future, they can also be recollections of the past events that happen to us subconsciously or not before…that’s why for some instances we may think that dreams can sometimes predict the future…or maybe some of us think its the loop hole, god “accidentally” created in us to enable us to peek into the future he has planed for us. However, dreams are nothing more than that of our greatest desires. Desires that we want real badly that can somewhat alter the way our mind thinks and thus allow dreams to become reality through our shear determination that we want things to take effect the way we yearn for it to…

Scientists have proven that there is such a thing as the subconscious mind, which records the places, and events happening to us or around us. The subconscious mind takes control of our body, especially the brain, when we are at rest and let our minds wander. This is called “day- dreaming” or “building sand castles in the sky”. At this point in time, the subconscious mind has enabled/activated the dream caliber in our brain allowing us to go through what it has revealed and seen when our conscious mind is in control. Opportunities like this can happen any time anywhere but to see our subconscious mind’s wonders takes both time and luck! Very often when people are dreaming, they get wakened and their dream vanishes- completely erased from the mind. Making it rather impossible to continue where their dream stopped. It’s only through shear coincidence that one is able to continue from that point where the dream was stumped. It’s a funny thing that when dreams end nicely, we cannot imagine and continue from the ending. It is like its destined to end in that manner and no one can do anything about it. Many a times dreams are also purely imaginations created by our mind, both conscious and subconscious. The reason why pain, joy, agony and fear felt in dreams are so well projected is due to the fact that both our minds have worked/functioned in the “real” world for so long, that they can mimic our very reactions and convert it to the dream world where our feelings are able to come to life virtually. In some dreams for instance, “a person jumping down flights of stairs, misses a footing at the very last moment and rams his knee into the wall”. What the person is experiencing is excruciating pain projected by the subconscious mind from the conscious mind through the use of events and experiences of the past, and even imaginations, but not the nerves that run throughout the person’s body. The pain felt is only virtual and very likely brought about by how your mind perceives the pain that should be felt if such cases ever do happen. That is otherwise, if the person has personally experienced such pain before -which is the doing of the subconscious mind that has brought days of old back to life.

Ramifications of not dreaming could lead to depression, stress and discontent. Dreams possess the ability to relax the mind, and if it’s taken away the consequences are deadly in the long run. Though dreams are simply just thoughts, yet they have powers of their own healing… Without dreams, life would be dull and we can only look forward to see things the way it is… that’s why Apple Company’s slogan is, “think different”…we’ve got to think out of the box for creative ideas. Sometimes these crazy and innovative ideas are brought about by dreams as it is the process by which the mind takes the parts of things apart and fix/join other parts together- creating new and amazing gadgets that awes the world! These are all done simultaneously and subconsciously in our minds and later projected in frames within our heads, and when its time for us to harness these ideas, that’s where imagination steps in to fill up the missing pieces of this big jigsaw puzzle to bring about the latest state-of-the-art products! It’s always the case where dreams form the fundamental part of our ideas- that’s where our ideas are born!